Kaycie! Kaycie, Kaycie, Kaycie. With all do respect, sister, who has been feeding you such nonsense?! This is some of the strangest doctrine I've heard in a long time. Now, we know there was controversy about your avatar, and that's not really your picture, right? So, maybe you're just trying to fool us now, but, really...no instruments? Even in worship? You say every time Jesus sang, there were no instruments. How do you know, were you there? And how many recordings are there of Him singing, anyway?
You say when He preached the Sermon, there was no choir behind Him. How do you know, were you there? I bet thers's a choir of angels praising Him all the time, plus, you said YOU sing, so why would this even be a problem? Your logic is confusing. You say God didn't make pianos. He didn't make the printing press, either, but you say you learned about not using instruments in the bible...the PRINTED bible. Or was it on the computer you're on, because God didn't make that, either, so be careful what you type.
And do you think God is mad at the composers of hymns and symphonies, down through the centuries? Do you like 'Ode to Joy' for instance?
I don't mean to pick on you, Kaycie, I want to believe in you as my sweet sister in Christ, but someone has been teaching you some very sad and legalistic doctrine, and I don't think it's the Holy Spirit. I really hope you get out from under it, and sing and play and find an instrument and praise our Saviour with all your heart for the wonderful things He has done.
And i thank you for your honesty about this, because earlier tonight I was getting hit by the enemy with depression...an ongoing battle I have sometimes, but reading your post about not being allowed to worship the Lord with instruments first saddened, and then angered, and then inspired me. Who is anyone, man or devil, to tell us how we should or shouldn't worship the true and living God and Saviour. Guitar, piano, flute, drum, whatever you've got, let all you do be done for the glory of the Lord!
First chance i get, i'm buying a kazoo! God bless you, Kaycie.