Monica, if I may say a few words to you. FIrst, you are LOVED MUCH, the enemy is a liar. I would tell you though that you are in the best place in your life right now. When a person comes to a place where they feel as you do, worthless, that is the place where The Lord can use you the most. You see, now you come to a place where it is not about you, but how God can use you to give Life and Life abundantly to others. Jesus never came to earth to gratify HIMSELF, but to die for others in giving HIS LIFE for Others. Now, if you are a believer, HE, that same SPIRIT living in you should be doing the same. I mean really going out to people and giving them this ABUNDANT LIFE. Not praying for them but MINISTERING to them this LIFE. Get involved in a church ministry of OUTREACH TO HURTING people as yourself. Go and heal the sick, cast out devils and raise the dead. Let Christ come out of you unto others. Let not fear nor doubt keep you from LOVING the unloved. Go to the lost teens, the forgotten elderly, the suicidal men and women who are dead to Christ and bring them Christ and HOPE. GO, GO, GO and lety no one tell you otherwise. Do what Jesus did as He is in you. And if no one else will go with you, then go alone and others will joine you. YOU DO HAVE PURPOSE but you must go fulfill it. Do not wait, but go today. LOVE SOMEONE to LIFE. GIVE THEM YOUR LIFE. Feed the hungry peanut butter sandwiches, visit the sick in hospitals and heal them. Visit the prisoners of whom others foresaken and give them HOPE in CHRIST. JESUS is in you CRYING out "LET ME OUT of you", and GO,GO,GO and see the JOY overtake you as you do so. YOU HAVE MUCH TO GIVE, and HIS NAME IS JESUS. Find a sick person and just go lay hands on them and love them and say be healed in Jesus Name, and watch in amazement as YOU, Monica will be used by GOD to bring LIFE to people. Satan would lie to you and tell you have nothing to give. But you have your LIFE TO GIVE and that LIFE is made upm of JESUS. GO,GO,GO and wait not.