very very very lonely. it's like no one is in my life, knows what is going on with me or cares how i feel. i've never felt so trapped before in such a minuscule confined sterile world all alone. im not trying to feel sorry for myself or attract pity. im just being honest. im very lonely and feel no joy or excitement about life. i need help.
big brain-damage bleakness feel like homeless person desperate. ohwow iwonderhowtogetoutofthis severely dark suffocating hole. how will i make it in this world. life never been this sterile and confined. devoid of any excitement. colorless. dim. ohwowimbraindamaged. depressed. crumpled up. LORD HAVE MERCY. Lord my brain isn't working properly. im so dysfunctional icant even takeintoaccount how trashed my mind is.
take over Lord. take over. JOLT ME OUT OF THIS SICK DEADNESS. enliven me mind heart and soul with the electric life-affirming power of the Holy Spirit, mold me anew, jog me out of this inertia into a new frame of perception. Lord lift me up. Create in me a clean heart. I surrender. I surrender. I surrender. I'm a broken empty vessel vitiated by an excess of poisons. guide me. take over. i give you my life.