Hang there, Blain . . . do not ever give up on your hopes and dreams of being gifted with a more Powerful experience from and with God. I'm nearly 55, and I cannot believe how quickly I have reached this age. It seems to have happened so quickly. It was just moments ago that I was a young child suffering from parents who would soon divorce . . . leaving me with a crushed and broken heart that never truly mended. And now that I approach what is to be retirement, I am nowhere near ready for this period of my life, and I don't know what I am about to do. I am in no financial position for retirement; hence, I wonder where all of the time has gone and why the years go by in what seems like mere months.
While I continue to suffer in such nonsensical ways from the evils in this world, there are days when I repeat over and over the below phrase:
"My Grace is sufficient for thee." This Grace is about having received the Circumcision of Christ . . . to be alleviated of the Adamic Curse. The relentless stresses and anxieties of this world are utterly ridiculous. I feel as though my life has been ruined because of unlawful accusations; yet . . . the Lord's Grace is all that I Truly need. When I offered myself to God to be used by Him in any way that He chooses, I had no idea that suffering would be His answer. Although I have experienced ridiculous sufferings in this world, I had no idea of what was to await me after I gave myself to the Lord 100% . . . wholly and completely. I cannot recount to you the number of times I rest on my knees with my arms in the air offering myself to our Powerful, Almighty God. It would have been impossible to have known how much I must suffer for Him.
But it is True, the Lord's Grace Truly is all we need. And, I know that what you have written, you could only write these things if it were not for our Powerful God enabling you to see what you see; to think what you think; to know what you know. You have been Graced by the Powerful, Almighty God of all that is. So as you continue to suffer, count your senseless sufferings as Blessings. For, you know through your studies that God Loves the brokenhearted; God Loves those who are suffering. And as difficult as it can be to understand at times, the Lord's Ways are not our ways. This is Satan's world, a world of luxury and pleasure for those who seek his unlawful, unholy ways. But those who are suffering, we are the Children of God. And because of these sufferings, we are told many times over to Endure. Endure! Endure what? Beds of roses and fields of butterflies? No, we are to Endure years of senseless hardship.
So I tell you to continue to endure. Continue to live in as great a sense of utter perfection as possible. Live a life worthy of our Powerful God! Prove yourself to Him through your love even for your enemies. Pray for them. Give to them . . . even when they do not deserve it.
Lastly, thank you for allowing us to respond to your Holy Words above, for our response to what you have written is also to be used as personal reminders to self that though this life is not easy . . . we are on the True and Right Path.
I believe in you, Blaine. Keep the Faith . . . never give up![/B]
While I continue to suffer in such nonsensical ways from the evils in this world, there are days when I repeat over and over the below phrase:
"My Grace is sufficient for thee." This Grace is about having received the Circumcision of Christ . . . to be alleviated of the Adamic Curse. The relentless stresses and anxieties of this world are utterly ridiculous. I feel as though my life has been ruined because of unlawful accusations; yet . . . the Lord's Grace is all that I Truly need. When I offered myself to God to be used by Him in any way that He chooses, I had no idea that suffering would be His answer. Although I have experienced ridiculous sufferings in this world, I had no idea of what was to await me after I gave myself to the Lord 100% . . . wholly and completely. I cannot recount to you the number of times I rest on my knees with my arms in the air offering myself to our Powerful, Almighty God. It would have been impossible to have known how much I must suffer for Him.
But it is True, the Lord's Grace Truly is all we need. And, I know that what you have written, you could only write these things if it were not for our Powerful God enabling you to see what you see; to think what you think; to know what you know. You have been Graced by the Powerful, Almighty God of all that is. So as you continue to suffer, count your senseless sufferings as Blessings. For, you know through your studies that God Loves the brokenhearted; God Loves those who are suffering. And as difficult as it can be to understand at times, the Lord's Ways are not our ways. This is Satan's world, a world of luxury and pleasure for those who seek his unlawful, unholy ways. But those who are suffering, we are the Children of God. And because of these sufferings, we are told many times over to Endure. Endure! Endure what? Beds of roses and fields of butterflies? No, we are to Endure years of senseless hardship.
So I tell you to continue to endure. Continue to live in as great a sense of utter perfection as possible. Live a life worthy of our Powerful God! Prove yourself to Him through your love even for your enemies. Pray for them. Give to them . . . even when they do not deserve it.
Lastly, thank you for allowing us to respond to your Holy Words above, for our response to what you have written is also to be used as personal reminders to self that though this life is not easy . . . we are on the True and Right Path.
I believe in you, Blaine. Keep the Faith . . . never give up![/B]
However There are moments when he and I connect deeply and in these times I feel a nearness like every time I draw near to him I am somehow even closer to his arms than beofre like I am slowly walking towards him until I am finally in his arms and it isn't that much farther. I also know that my soul being tired is not simply because of this world it is because of the deep longing for him, I used to long for him and yet I was able to stay strong but as of late I am just tired and as odd as it may sound I sometimes wonder if this is my soul instinctively knowing that it is nearly time to go home.
If this is in fact the case then all I have to do is endure the dinal stretch of the race because quite honestly I don't think I have it in me to keep this up for years to come it simply would be to much for me to bear far to long to be without him. But you know I have had a few encounters with God recently one of which I was sitting in my room and it was like I couldn't put on a facade my true feelings suddenly were out in the open and I was just tried so exhausted and I had no strength I wanted to be strong but I just was so tired this world had worn me out the longing for him had become to much and I said to him father I am just so tired.
And I suddenly felt a holy presence and the sonf by mercy me almost home came on