J
Well recently got a divorce cause 10 years of verble abuse is enough and I just left I guess I thought that he would call and want to know why I left but he did not and then he is with somebody else in less than 2 weeks, now he lives with her and I feel he never loved me and he was not a christian and god actually opened doors for me to get out and I took them.
So now 5 months later I wonder if I did the right thing, is there a way to start over and find another and do I really want it. I am 50 and now wonder if I will spend the rest of my life alone. I am scared of new relationship cause of what they always want and without a commitment and if I get married again can I be treated right. so hard to know how they are until after you marry them. My x was so loving and caring until after I married him and he changed and if he loved me how could he move on into somebody elses bed. I imagine I thought he would call and ask me back and we work on the relationship and when he moved on to the next girl I was confused but I am happier without all the arquing and him controlling me.
Even if he did call it may still not have worked and I know I am better off but it is so hard to find somebody else and my feelings about it. when I left I think he was more concerned over what I took than me being gone. I have a better relationship with my family now cause he had me not be around them and made them feel uncomfortable they are happy I left him but I am lonely on weekends and I pray god send the right man but do I look for him and how will I know he is sent by god?
So now 5 months later I wonder if I did the right thing, is there a way to start over and find another and do I really want it. I am 50 and now wonder if I will spend the rest of my life alone. I am scared of new relationship cause of what they always want and without a commitment and if I get married again can I be treated right. so hard to know how they are until after you marry them. My x was so loving and caring until after I married him and he changed and if he loved me how could he move on into somebody elses bed. I imagine I thought he would call and ask me back and we work on the relationship and when he moved on to the next girl I was confused but I am happier without all the arquing and him controlling me.
Even if he did call it may still not have worked and I know I am better off but it is so hard to find somebody else and my feelings about it. when I left I think he was more concerned over what I took than me being gone. I have a better relationship with my family now cause he had me not be around them and made them feel uncomfortable they are happy I left him but I am lonely on weekends and I pray god send the right man but do I look for him and how will I know he is sent by god?