Goodbye

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isaria

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Back when I was still Victoria I remember a evil hens night took place.
Black magic and bullying and theft.
I remember having a vision of walking down the isle with my name victoria and then the bride gown dropped to ground and I "disappeared" invisible.
A few days later I drop to my knees and words start chanting from my mouth and i prayer.
I have priests of some kind surrounding me in a circle.
I speak a language "in tounge" that i as human have never spoken b4.

I remember my heart breaking in severe pain.


I remember a man supposed to be father figure told me i was not to have and hold or be with a man i loved.
He said he was not wealthy and gave other reasons. I hit my chest and said "derico derico" heart is how rich..
He was not for me which I see clearly now.
Thank ful for this now.

After that every one left me that I had spoken with.
I have muslim back ground in my time but I am not muslim and do not want wear burka and so forth.

Then being taken to rustic schack where i lived alone in bush with funny out back, holes in walls, wild life, snakes, toads landed on face (many many of them ) and screeches in night so loud I think I may been cursed and no electricity either but candle light and rats everywhere poor hygiene.

Before leaving this place again swirling wierd spirtual journey or dream...... I experienced other things I can not put to words.
and should not try.


Who I was and who I am is kind of the same for a name is a name and how good a name is and how one can love a name and all attatched to it when that name nolonger is who you are but is taking away who you are from you then you may find who you are changing name to once again be united in who and all one is.


And with that new name united in who and all one is one can find a new holy union, marriage , true friends, real family, home, work ,money and other wonderful things.

For I lost a lot that day.
A lot more than my name I once loved and held so high and a lot more than friends and dreams and laughter ....


But for a new beginning.
A fresh start.
Born again.
United in who and all one is.


For some reason I wanted to write good bye Victoria and the names nolonger who i am or want to be with .
A cut so deep can do so much.


I found a new love.
A new name.
A new life I will to start living and embrace and welcome it to come now.


In end of court hearings now and I pray it will all be finalised so soon so soon.

Invisible, isolated so long with feel empty body so how did we start, where did we meet..... :)
That I will lay me down to be with now and not try write of here.

I praise and thank God and a sacred husband and a holy friends and family and people and a beautiful world.

It is not to late to live with body/meat/temple also... :) united with spirit, holy ghost and sweet love and other goodness.


Illan over.
Goodbye and may you find peace but far away from me/us. :) (restraining order)


I sorry sounds blabberish to anyone bother read but I felt to write it out in universe, in conciousness, to God...something....
Because so much has happened i can not find words to articulate here, now.... but some thing can be written.
Be it clumsy, spelling mistakes, messy, and wierd and gollyness what still.... : Goodbye.
 

inge

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Jun 23, 2012
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I hope and pray you find God so He can comfort you and direct you in your steps. It seems you have been through awful situations. I am not sure if you have a bible but I would advise you to read it. It helped me to understand God, and also what Jesus as Savior did for me. Also reading it gives me peace.
 

Ugly

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I hope and pray you find God so He can comfort you and direct you in your steps. It seems you have been through awful situations. I am not sure if you have a bible but I would advise you to read it. It helped me to understand God, and also what Jesus as Savior did for me. Also reading it gives me peace.
Erm... she claims to be a Christian already.
 

inge

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Jun 23, 2012
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Erm... she claims to be a Christian already.

I did read a post in the Arab forum Ugly..... not quoting here but that made me response with this answer :)