The talk I had with the girls volleyball team was somewhat of a success. In other words, it was received well and the girls made some necessary adjustments. Well, I know my Lord is responsible and I give Him all the Glory.
You know what I did, though, after? I was feeling confident and decided to go backwards to arenas I had already been.
Yup, I went to a place, hoping maybe breakthrough had happened, that maybe change had occurred there as well. After all, it seems lately I was finding some breakthrough, spiritually and otherwise, so surely, I would find it in all areas of my life. Ugh, what a silly child I am, sometimes...🤯😟😳😬😮
Humbling and reasonable balance was necessary.
I not only saw the same old stuff, but noticed my attitude in response went backwards too. I am so often reminded not to look back, not to hold on to wounds or to things that God has moved me from.
I am not saying that "they" are bad there or that I am better or more mature as a Christian. My response and attitudes decline demonstrates so clearly the opposite. I am saying that it is such a waste of time chasing after stuff from the past. To be so desperate for a personal happy ending in matters, that we negate to realize the possibility that God has already worked out things for good, for all concerned.
I am such a stubborn pollyanna kind of child, always hoping for the bright side for everyone, especially with family in Christ, wanting us all to get along, to warmly accept us all. I guess it can come from a seeker friendly mentality.
He keeps reminding me that yes, it is reasonable to trust and believe in His goodness, to focus on that which is lovely. However, chasing after my own expectations of what I think is good can not only be foolish but painful in the stumble of such vain and selfish pursuits.
What is best, what is good for all of us, is Him and His will, PERIOD!!!!
Philippians 4:13-14 “Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
Genesis 19:17
“And as they brought them out, one said, “Escape for your life. Do not look back or stop anywhere in the valley. Escape to the hills, lest you be swept away.”
Luke 9:62
“Jesus replied, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.”
Genesis 19:26
“But Lot’s wife, behind him, looked back, and she became a pillar of salt.”
Isaiah 43:18-19
“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.
Ecclesiastes 7:10 ESV
Say not, “Why were the former days better than these?” For it is not from wisdom that you ask this.
Lord, I am so grateful for what I have and for where You place me in life. I am so sorry for thinking it wasn't enough, for desiring different outcomes so much that I diminish the quality found in the result of Your choosing.
I do not know all your plans for me and mine, but help me to stay at Your feet, trusting and tending to Your ways, more than trying to adjust endings the way I see fit. Peace comes in resting in your will be done, not wanting, even expecting, my will be done.
You know what I did, though, after? I was feeling confident and decided to go backwards to arenas I had already been.
Yup, I went to a place, hoping maybe breakthrough had happened, that maybe change had occurred there as well. After all, it seems lately I was finding some breakthrough, spiritually and otherwise, so surely, I would find it in all areas of my life. Ugh, what a silly child I am, sometimes...🤯😟😳😬😮
Humbling and reasonable balance was necessary.
I not only saw the same old stuff, but noticed my attitude in response went backwards too. I am so often reminded not to look back, not to hold on to wounds or to things that God has moved me from.
I am not saying that "they" are bad there or that I am better or more mature as a Christian. My response and attitudes decline demonstrates so clearly the opposite. I am saying that it is such a waste of time chasing after stuff from the past. To be so desperate for a personal happy ending in matters, that we negate to realize the possibility that God has already worked out things for good, for all concerned.
I am such a stubborn pollyanna kind of child, always hoping for the bright side for everyone, especially with family in Christ, wanting us all to get along, to warmly accept us all. I guess it can come from a seeker friendly mentality.
He keeps reminding me that yes, it is reasonable to trust and believe in His goodness, to focus on that which is lovely. However, chasing after my own expectations of what I think is good can not only be foolish but painful in the stumble of such vain and selfish pursuits.
What is best, what is good for all of us, is Him and His will, PERIOD!!!!
Philippians 4:13-14 “Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
Genesis 19:17
“And as they brought them out, one said, “Escape for your life. Do not look back or stop anywhere in the valley. Escape to the hills, lest you be swept away.”
Luke 9:62
“Jesus replied, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.”
Genesis 19:26
“But Lot’s wife, behind him, looked back, and she became a pillar of salt.”
Isaiah 43:18-19
“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.
Ecclesiastes 7:10 ESV
Say not, “Why were the former days better than these?” For it is not from wisdom that you ask this.
Lord, I am so grateful for what I have and for where You place me in life. I am so sorry for thinking it wasn't enough, for desiring different outcomes so much that I diminish the quality found in the result of Your choosing.
I do not know all your plans for me and mine, but help me to stay at Your feet, trusting and tending to Your ways, more than trying to adjust endings the way I see fit. Peace comes in resting in your will be done, not wanting, even expecting, my will be done.
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