Hi Hethr, if you can't find the cause or a solution for your depression, sometimes medication can really help. I was on anti depressants for about 5 months or so. I was soo scared to go on them because I never thought it could help me in the long run. I was so worried that I would never be able to get off them or cope on my own. But really, I felt so much better, I didn't feeb abnormal anymore, my spirits were lifted and I took myself off the pills and I haven't looked back yet. I am so thankful to be off them, and feeling myself again. Somethings can be chemical, and some medications can just bring you out of a funk.. from my experiences anyways.
always let someone in to how youre feeling, things will look up! I'll be praying for you!