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When i was a child, i suffered with many illness, rejection and no emotional support from my siblings and parents. Whey I was in High School, my mom won't allow me to enjoy physical activities and wanted me to stay home a lot. When I reached college, i got an accident that made me more insecure physically that i didn't like to continue studying but i fought it and overcome. When I started working, i got persecuted with my parents, siblings, relatives because of my decision to become a Christian last June 27, 1993. The persecutions already started before i got baptized. I told them i was studying the bible yet my mom told me better work than do anything else. My mom told me to choose if i rather stay being a christian or rather stay in our house and not become a christian. I chose the latter. I left home and continue serving the Lord. I've had a Christian boyfriend before but he left the church and since then my woes engulfed me. 1997 when we broke up. 1998 when my cousin died in the province, 1999 when my eldest brother died, 2000, my father died, 2002 my uncle died, 2004, another uncle died because of tragedy. 2006 when my grandmother died, 2007 when my sister died and 2008 my mother passed away. Now 2009 and2010, my brother was harassing me verbally and physically. He always bullied me and wanted me thrown out in our house. He disowned me and would like me not to get the rights i have as one of heirs of my parents' business and properties. On my own strengths i cannot do it only God knows why I'm still here fighting for my relationship with God and for my salvation. I always reading JOB and most of the times I am strengthened but at this time, I'm kinda emotional because yesterday (Jan. 1, 2010) was my mom's birthday and tomorrow(Jan. 3) is my sisters'. How can i celebrate the new year with those hurtful memories and challenges? Is someone out there human, can relate with me? Please, I need someone t be with me everyday, not only God but a person who I can be with just for me to be reminded every minute not to doubt God loves me and have a purpose for me and more than a purpose why He allowed me to undergo all these traumatic experience every minute, every day, every year.
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