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This is kind of a long story but please bear with me.
In October I got baptised into Christ after studying the bible for months. I said "Yes, this is what I want and need!" After I got baptised things seemed to go downhill for me; I still wasn't happy and I struggled with believing in God. So I said "This isn't right for me, I'm done" & about a week later I stopped considering myself a christian. I still wasn't happy though and my life got worse than before - I met some 44 year old man on MySpace [I'm only 17] and I tried to meet up with him; My mom stopped me, of course. I've also been really depressed and kinda suicidal. I've also been practicing Witchcraft against my mom's will. I've basically went against everything the bible says is wrong. =/ There's so much more but I'll leave it at that. Basically, I'd like to come back to God but I don't know if I believe in Him anymore. I want to believe in Him so bad but I'm all for science, which disproves the existence of God. So I don't know what to do. I'm so grateful for my mom, aunt, grandma, and family friend. They're all born-again christians and are really trying to help me but I just don't know what to do. If anyone wants to help me I would really, truly appreciate it.
Thanks so much for reading this [if you did! Haha].
In October I got baptised into Christ after studying the bible for months. I said "Yes, this is what I want and need!" After I got baptised things seemed to go downhill for me; I still wasn't happy and I struggled with believing in God. So I said "This isn't right for me, I'm done" & about a week later I stopped considering myself a christian. I still wasn't happy though and my life got worse than before - I met some 44 year old man on MySpace [I'm only 17] and I tried to meet up with him; My mom stopped me, of course. I've also been really depressed and kinda suicidal. I've also been practicing Witchcraft against my mom's will. I've basically went against everything the bible says is wrong. =/ There's so much more but I'll leave it at that. Basically, I'd like to come back to God but I don't know if I believe in Him anymore. I want to believe in Him so bad but I'm all for science, which disproves the existence of God. So I don't know what to do. I'm so grateful for my mom, aunt, grandma, and family friend. They're all born-again christians and are really trying to help me but I just don't know what to do. If anyone wants to help me I would really, truly appreciate it.
Thanks so much for reading this [if you did! Haha].