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i was a satanist for most of my life after being raised by a fake Christian who used the bible as a weapon. Im back with Christ but not sure about the nature of God. And how to proceed with it. i was told(rebuked) recently that God isn't cruel but loving and im interested in this narrative. Gnostic philosophy was a big part of my previous belief structure, now i need to get closer to God. Im a weird guy who found Christ because of my research into the masons(albert pike and manly palmer hall mostly) who claim that all other religions are from lucifer if you look hard enough eg. vishnu (a lord of darkness that brings light). it sync'd up with the biblical view of other faiths, and they love everything but Christianity. so i have found the larger church of lucifer, even bigger than the TOS COS TOL. I got here by a back road but im here now. I might need to talk with a pastor or something. Im not used to giving up my likes and desires anymore, its hard. So if you all know any good Christian metal music that sounds like thrash or norwegian black metal that does not suck, im not ready for gospel as it still makes me uncomfortable for some reason, and i feel so guilty when i listen to satanic music now. Can't listen to my old taste and cant find a taste for the new stuff. I also struggle with my intellect vs. things i can't explain like the presence of God. Ive basically screwed up my life and im tired of all of it by now, maybe God can help but i pray and im not sure if im being answered. i see tons of false teachers these days they are everywhere. and even my own kin are fooled time and time again by a flashy money hungry cultleaders like hillsong Brian allah lover Houston and angus buchan look at my faked miracles and unsubstantiated healing and unproven bringer of the dead back to life. its a weird time, the catholic church protects pedophiles, and jorge mario bergoglio who let the nazis into argentina in the dirtywar is pope and grand jesuit now. the times are screwed up. This is proof of God to me, they all try to corrupt the faith with eastern mysticism(hindu kundalini snake worship). Why would they do that if God did not exist?
 

NoNameMcgee

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well.... what would make you think God is cruel in the first place?

if youre not going based off of the acts of men who falsely proclaim his name in their own selfish efforts
 

blue_ladybug

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Welcome to CC. You may want to continue this in the Bible forum. Also, we have a Music and Prayer forum.. :)
 

WineRose

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I think we have a new record on the longest name on CC. If not, we still have quite a fine contender...

Aaaaanywayyyy...welcome to CC! :)
 

Rosemaryx

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Well first of all I want to say Praise God \0/ that you are here:)...WOW...I am sure someone will come along and help you...The fact that you are here is a great starting place, keep praying, sounds like you have heard Gods calling, keep listening, one step at a time...Oh and welcome to CC...xox...
 

NoNameMcgee

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Well first of all I want to say Praise God \0/ that you are here:)...WOW...I am sure someone will come along and help you...The fact that you are here is a great starting place, keep praying, sounds like you have heard Gods calling, keep listening, one step at a time...Oh and welcome to CC...xox...
i second this

haha
 

Lighthearted

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i was a satanist for most of my life after being raised by a fake Christian who used the bible as a weapon. Im back with Christ but not sure about the nature of God. And how to proceed with it. i was told(rebuked) recently that God isn't cruel but loving and im interested in this narrative. Gnostic philosophy was a big part of my previous belief structure, now i need to get closer to God. Im a weird guy who found Christ because of my research into the masons(albert pike and manly palmer hall mostly) who claim that all other religions are from lucifer if you look hard enough eg. vishnu (a lord of darkness that brings light). it sync'd up with the biblical view of other faiths, and they love everything but Christianity. so i have found the larger church of lucifer, even bigger than the TOS COS TOL. I got here by a back road but im here now. I might need to talk with a pastor or something. Im not used to giving up my likes and desires anymore, its hard. So if you all know any good Christian metal music that sounds like thrash or norwegian black metal that does not suck, im not ready for gospel as it still makes me uncomfortable for some reason, and i feel so guilty when i listen to satanic music now. Can't listen to my old taste and cant find a taste for the new stuff. I also struggle with my intellect vs. things i can't explain like the presence of God. Ive basically screwed up my life and im tired of all of it by now, maybe God can help but i pray and im not sure if im being answered. i see tons of false teachers these days they are everywhere. and even my own kin are fooled time and time again by a flashy money hungry cultleaders like hillsong Brian allah lover Houston and angus buchan look at my faked miracles and unsubstantiated healing and unproven bringer of the dead back to life. its a weird time, the catholic church protects pedophiles, and jorge mario bergoglio who let the nazis into argentina in the dirtywar is pope and grand jesuit now. the times are screwed up. This is proof of God to me, they all try to corrupt the faith with eastern mysticism(hindu kundalini snake worship). Why would they do that if God did not exist?
God bless you. I'm glad you're here. Sometimes the Lord can take the bad things in our lives to bring us around to seek Him. It's so easy to be led astray if you're not diligently seeking Him and trying to live the way He desires us too. Even Christians struggle in doing the right things or having good thoughts...so know you are not alone here on CC or ever.
As far as finding God's love and learning His word, the best way to do that for anyone is to pray, to ask for His guidance, to find a church that speaks to us, and to read His word everyday. Living for Satan and self is easy because it requires you to believe in nothing, but it makes life miserable in the long run...and who wants to be miserable for eternity?With Jesus, it can be hard to avoid temptations, but He forgives us and is so loving, He let's us start over again if we mess up...and often uses our mistakes to teach us to follow where He leads instead. Praise the Lord that you have Him in your heart, that He has called you to Him. Perhaps He will use you for His glory to speak to other satanists of His love and His plan! He loves you...and isn't that good to know that your eternal life will not be spent in misery but in paradise?
 
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Thanks for the replies everyone, i used to have a strange view of Christians so i was kind of scared of posting here, thanks for the well wishes its welcoming. This is not going to be a good October for me, so im glad for the support.
 

Lighthearted

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Why are you claiming a bad October?
Claim that He brings you a blessed October and helps you with what you struggle with.
 

tourist

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I'm glad to see that you have done a 180 and now a Christian. Hopefully, this site will be edifying in your spiritual walk with the Lord. Glad to have you as part of our community of believers. Welcome to CC.
 
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you can claim whatever you want but reality is reality, ex-satanists don't usually do well in October. I moved so it can be better, since my new location isnt known by anyone whom i don't trust expressly
 

Lighthearted

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I felt that I should just mention to you that not having secular music sit well with you anymore can easily be part of the change God makes in our lives when we become born again. It doesn't sit well, because it's no longer good for us to listen to. The more you let Him work in you, the more you will tune out the old ways. The easiest way to leave the old music behind...is just change the dial.
 

Rosemaryx

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Such beauty in October...The fallen leaves, preparing for the new growth in spring:), the changing colours of the landscape, the skies showing all the different hues, that`s Gods Tapestry for our eyes :)...Hot drinks , pumpkin soup, quiet time with our Lord and Saviour, snuggled up under a blanket as we read His Word that feeds our spirit...Remember one of the things God says [h=1]Deuteronomy 31:6-8New King James Version (NKJV)[/h][FONT=&quot]6 Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.”...So you see my brother, through these difficult times ahead of you, remember, He is ALWAYS with you regardless of how you feel...xox...[/FONT]
 

Faithwarrior

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Hey Bro, welcome to the familia :D... ,man oh man God is so good. that is one hectic detour and it's inspiring to hear how you've been led here by your own research. Coming from that kind of history you're in a much better position to help others who are going down the same road than most of us.

I'm currently listening to;
August Burns Red - Invisible Enemy (Official Music Video) on Youtube. I'm not a metal head but have a friend who is a self proclaimed "huge metal head" so hopefully these are some great recommends for Christian metal;
1)August Burns Red, 2) Underoath, 3) As I lay dying, 4) Haste the day, 5)My children my bride, 6)Oh sleeper and 7)Norma Jean
Even though I don't normally listen to metal, this sounds pretty
:p epic. My friend told me to invite you to a venue his band was going to be jamming at but i hadn't mentioned you're from the USA yet haha.

I'm going to attempt to be as frank as possible bro, Trust in God not man for we all fall short of the glory of God. So please take everything anyone says with a pinch of salt unless it aligns perfectly with scripture~ if it doesn't just consider it an opinion. You're right about there being a lot of ambiguity out there so stay vigilant.
[h=1]1 John 4.[/h]
 

joefizz

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you can claim whatever you want but reality is reality, ex-satanists don't usually do well in October. I moved so it can be better, since my new location isnt known by anyone whom i don't trust expressly
Well october has Halloween which has a cult origin that has some bizarre and creepy traditions tied to it,so I can understand anyone being opposed to October activities.
 

joefizz

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Welcome here you can discuss with bible smart people and possibly make new friends,hope you like it here!
 
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Welcome!

I'm so glad you're here. We're not perfect, so, like someone posted above "
[FONT=&quot]Trust in God not man for we all fall short of the glory of God[/FONT][FONT=&quot]. So please take everything anyone says with a pinch of salt unless it aligns perfectly with scripture~ if it doesn't just consider it an opinion." [/FONT]

I hope that through time in prayer and diving deep into scripture, you will see the true and wonderful nature of God rather than what the world tells us He is. I studied through the second half of the book of John last year and I was amazed how the truth and heart of Jesus was in that book. Enjoy the freedom, peace and joy that only He can give.

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gospelite

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It's wonderful that you have found the Lord! Often, when people are doing research, they are trying to prove that Christianity is a fable. But, they find that the more they try to prove it is fake, the more they prove it is REAL! God is so good to us! He has given me and my family everything! All good and perfect things come from our Father. I am glad to know you found Him, in spite of your background. I will be praying for your struggles, and always remember that before the Apostle Paul met the Lord on the road to Damascus, he was the chief among sinners! God can take you, and use your gloriously to further the Kingdom! God bless you!