Leave it behind

Leave it behind
by me

Thought I heard your voice
Whispered "I love you"
thought I seen your face,
the warmest eyes, holding out your heart,
thought I felt your touch,
guess my view's misplaced.

Been stuck in the past,
with a heart too heavy to carry out,
fooled myself with a ring that wasn't there,
sometimes I dwell in the
pool of tears disillusioned.

Can I not take a hint?
Will I ever get strength to lift
this broken heart to let go
and move forward?

I look back and remember
the love in your eyes,
but I look forward and
I am unwanted.

I've done the best I can,
I have tried to understand,
but I carry heart weighed heavily unwanted,
and I can't do this anymore,

I want to be wanted,
I want to be loved,
with someone who does.

I know how you feel. God made us for relation and fellowship.
It is difficult for us be alone.
I am in a relationship right now and it is as if I am alone so I have had to lean all the more on the Lord for his love and support.
Satan tries to bring us to the depths of despair.
God said he will NEVER leave or forsake us.
He can't lie.
Cry out to the Lord. He is always there for you.

Thank you Faithful1,

I wrote the poem for personal "never to be opened again" type of personal closure. I just want to stop hurting and stop looking back to something that is no longer alive anymore, to me it was. I feel so pathetic for feeling this way. I want to be stronger but i can't.

For me this poem is the right kind of slap in the face and wake up to reality and start living for the present poem that I need to remind myself.

"Cow girl up, get thick skin, or toughen up" is what people say where I live.

Yeah, you're right, and that is my goal, to spend so much time in God's presence that I don't return to the past and recycle old ways.

I really hope God leads me to someone new, and if not I will just focus on my career.

I have spent so much time trying to handle this alone. I need God's strength.

I am sorry you feel so alone with your partner. I hope that things are restored and that they see how you feel and do something about it.

God is faithful. I hope you are encouraged. He gives us supernatural strength to love beyond the norm, to go the distance.

Thanks for writing and for your encouragement.

You stopped doing poems. Make more. So did i. But you should keep at it. 💟

Yeah. I was taking a break from writing for a while. Plus I tend to get a little repetitive at times too.
That happen's when communicating with my thought's and feelings.
Thank you for reading them I appreciate that. I've been thinking about returning to writing for awhile now.

Have you started writing again? Where are your writings?

Uhm, they expired and went out of style. Gotta invent new ones. I ran out if words. I ‘ll keep looking.

Expired and went out of style? I'm sure that's not true. I bet you have a great God given gift with so much for the world to hear.
I think writing comes easier if you have a muse, a scene, and a story to tell. The best ones are the ones that came with tears, that's my opinion anyway.

It's kind of hard for me to write, I want to... but when I try I get depressed, because I know I'm just going to end up saying the same thing over and over again. It's a living hell for me that I try to break out of. If It were up to me this would be my virtual flour sack to wack someone over the head over and over for all eternity. I know that's wrong to think...lol

I'm tired of writing love songs, but I know I could write forever, and I know I could find new words.
I think you just have to find the right motivation and muse.

Mine are: Love, sadness, and anger, fear, loneliness, bitterness, and also hope.

I hope you find your focus, Janna38

Thankyou. And i agree with you, the best ones comes with tears. Lol

Welcome,

Art affects everyone in someway, it helps us and makes us think. Everyone wants some sort of human connection, and that's what art does. That is where purpose and audience come in. Who are you writing to, or for, and for what reason? I think the actual structure comes later on.

Remember everyone has their own likes and dislikes, not everyone is going to like or comprehend what you are saying, but there are going to be some in the world who can relate, and who you do make happy. Those people matter, because in some way, even though you may never meet they will be helped or healed by what you say.

Writing can also be destructive too though, in my case I am working on controlling my anger, and not writing angry. I want to say so many things in anger...but I find letting it go better.
I often revert back to sadness and how I felt in the first place, but I'm healing, and trying to move on and forward.

At the time of some of my poems I was writing to one person, which made it easy. I never expect them to care or reply. It helped me heal in a way..

Good.