please help

There is only ONE crazy cat lady on here, and that's ME.. lol

Darlene you are spiritually sensitive and you are right. You are aware and it can be lonely if you don't have other people around who can confirm what you are experiencing. I am so sorry that you are going through this pain. For myself, I wish I could meet you and get to know you. You sound amazing. You have such heart. Maybe God led you here, not only for your own fellowship needs, but maybe we need you too. Actually it is not a maybe. We need you too sister. You matter.

@laughing heart thank you so much for listening. right now in edmonton alberta we have people driving around listening to purge music going around beating up mostly native men and homeless men. the police won’t do anything for them because of the virus.

my home community is at risk right now because people continue to not care that this scary virus is here and keep walking around like its okay. i haven’t let my children out of our house because of creepy people who have already tried to walk into my house. i have seen him do it to my neighbours then stole from them. i am seriously in fear because my man has to work and he is going out every day his shift comes and even he acts like just because we are native won’t get sick and if we do we’ll get better. he will but what about my asthmatic 5 year old???

i will not stop screening him at the entrance and having immediate cleaning before he touched or touches anything.
i love my home and pray for him every day. i am so scared for our future for everyone.

if we have large groups of men driving around out and about with the intention to physically harm other people then i even pray for them to change it in their own hearts to do good not bad.

i posted it to a pay it forward website and people laughed saying that they deserve it and it’s none of our business if people have to take matters into their own hands. it broke my heart that how much people didn’t care about the welfare of our people who are out on the street.

my own man is said this morning he isn’t special why do you care. he pouts in the room all day or does what “he” wants and shows little interest in the things we do together at home as a family because nobody ever showed him love.

its almost as if he wants to get mad at me so much like he wants to but now he has absolutely no reason to anymore.

i tell him he needs time to heal so i am not gonna push him anymore, when you are ready to suck up your pride we are here waiting for you to come laugh with us because we love you; you are special to us. i hope that meant anything to him.

i have been doing things with my children to pass time and i love my kids so much and this website. you are all amazing people and thank you all for listening and praying for us 🥰

i can’t help everyone who needs but i can pray. kinda like what i thought of earlier.

just because its cloudy, it doesn’t mean the sun is shining ☀️ to me i love walking up and feeling we have another chance to change things about ourselves to be better than we were yesterday.

@laughingheart i believe he has lead me here because i find comfort knowing that i can ask for help from others and you all know of the battle happening right now between good n evil.

thank you so much. i honestly believe that if i had any traditional gift passed on to me and him that both to be rebuked from my home. i believe if we are given gifts only God has that power and it is given to you and only you alone. i believe my gift is my mouth and mind lol some people can’t stand me because of my thinking and mouth. it hurts but they eventually come around and understand why i want people to see how precious our time is.

i am so thankful for toys so j can be a child again with my children.

i wish to find a good hearted christian woman who is a doula or midwive to be with my grown daughter during this time because we don’t know what the next 6 weeks is gonna look like. honestly this is the critical week for canadians to stop something but even we have become so dependent on instant gratification we act like we are okay.

@laughingheart here are our traditional ways of life and thinking, its something we all know about, like our ten commandments. we’re almost born with it you could say. my children finally played with our sons lego and we spent the whole day cleaning them. he was upset at first but then he never had anybody clean his legos. my step daughter never had any adult play house with her with all our characters.
i am breaking a vicious cycle of inter generational trauma. i am their mother and his wife. please let us get along now. or give me the strength to walk away but where am i to go. he has already started threatening to kick me out already. he saying it but i know he knows that’s impossible. even-to go home right now.

he is just mad that he has to suck it ip now and be a parent with me and to say things like you’ll be set they are giving more money to shelters so you’re going to be safe. EXCUSE ME?? i am safe why do i need to go ? is it because you hate me that much and can’t stand the happiness i am creating for our children to let them be harmoniously infatuated with each other and nobody is getting hurt??? idk it just seems like no matter what, he refuses to enjoy to laugh. hi pain is deep and to me its going to hurt my baby.

It is well with you dear, please don't misunderstand anyone here, we all love you and praying for The peace of God in your life and home. Don't worry about your children just do your best without stress and allow God take full control. Keep believing and praying, everything will be fine.

If you are still here then send me that message in private chat so i can see if there is anything there that is offensive or unacceptable..

I have thick skin..

there is no need, we have each other and all of you are amazing, thank you all. today i finally showered and am gonna clean my things. i have taken care of my childrens rooms and now i have to take care of me

idk if that means prep for the end of the world but i am. i love life and everyone in it. i haven’t left my house but my man has to and i am trying to convince him that he doesn’t have to.

i have marked our entrances with the blood of Jesus and pray every time i feel shaky like the sicknesses is afoot but i have no fear for my faith and many others like yourself are with us 🥰😊💖

You areGod be with you and your lovely family a very dear and beautiful person. I would pray the Blood of Jesus over your family and home everyday as I do. God bless you and your family!