The Beast Within

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LittleMermaid

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When I'm having an attack from the enemy these are the thoughts that go through my head...I haven't been attacked like this in a long time. So I thought I would record what my mind is thinking right now. It's ugly but it's what I have to live with. :cry:

You're alone
No one will ever really know you
Because no one wants to know you
You're worthless and disgusting
You have ruined yourself
You're fat and have no self control
God is ashamed of you
And for that you will no longer be useful
You are like a broken vase
Ugly and useless

It is a chore for people to even talk to you
You shouldn't have been born
You're a burden on your mother
Her life would have been better without you in it
You ruin even the happiest moments with your presence
You're not normal
You never will be
You don't have friends
Because no one wants to talk to you
Don't expect anyone to consider you their best friend

Delete that it sounds stupid
Don't say that or edit this
You misspelled a word and everyone will know how stupid you really are

Others recognize how anxious you are
They know you're a mess
Because it seeps into your conversation, your behavior around them
Behind you, they laugh at you
Between themselves they know you're not right
Everyone knows how weird you are

You don't deserve anything good
You're a bad person
You will never be anyone's priority
 

Rosemaryx

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You are the daughter of the KING most High...

The devil is the father of lies...

I am thankful for what you have wrote , I to suffer with ugly thoughts like these , but then I am reminded that Jesus died for people like you and I , and nothing can ever separate us from His love...

Oh and by the way , you are Gods priority ...Feelings are not trustworthy , they come and go and change like the wind , but Gods word is truth and never changes , stand on His truth and the devil will flee...
...xox...
 

Ruby123

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When I'm having an attack from the enemy these are the thoughts that go through my head...I haven't been attacked like this in a long time. So I thought I would record what my mind is thinking right now. It's ugly but it's what I have to live with. :cry:

You're alone
No one will ever really know you
Because no one wants to know you
You're worthless and disgusting
You have ruined yourself
You're fat and have no self control
God is ashamed of you
And for that you will no longer be useful
You are like a broken vase
Ugly and useless

It is a chore for people to even talk to you
You shouldn't have been born
You're a burden on your mother
Her life would have been better without you in it
You ruin even the happiest moments with your presence
You're not normal
You never will be
You don't have friends
Because no one wants to talk to you
Don't expect anyone to consider you their best friend

Delete that it sounds stupid
Don't say that or edit this
You misspelled a word and everyone will know how stupid you really are

Others recognize how anxious you are
They know you're a mess
Because it seeps into your conversation, your behavior around them
Behind you, they laugh at you
Between themselves they know you're not right
Everyone knows how weird you are

You don't deserve anything good
You're a bad person
You will never be anyone's priority
Reverse everything that the devil lies to you about and that is what God thinks, then celebrate because that is the truth.
 
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Heart_Melody

Guest
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When I'm having an attack from the enemy these are the thoughts that go through my head...I haven't been attacked like this in a long time. So I thought I would record what my mind is thinking right now. It's ugly but it's what I have to live with. :cry:

You're alone
No one will ever really know you
Because no one wants to know you
You're worthless and disgusting
You have ruined yourself
You're fat and have no self control
God is ashamed of you
And for that you will no longer be useful
You are like a broken vase
Ugly and useless

It is a chore for people to even talk to you
You shouldn't have been born
You're a burden on your mother
Her life would have been better without you in it
You ruin even the happiest moments with your presence
You're not normal
You never will be
You don't have friends
Because no one wants to talk to you
Don't expect anyone to consider you their best friend

Delete that it sounds stupid
Don't say that or edit this
You misspelled a word and everyone will know how stupid you really are

Others recognize how anxious you are
They know you're a mess
Because it seeps into your conversation, your behavior around them
Behind you, they laugh at you
Between themselves they know you're not right
Everyone knows how weird you are

You don't deserve anything good
You're a bad person
You will never be anyone's priority
Dear Sissy - I relate to this so much. I feel your pain and fear and loneliness.
I am just now receiving the much needed help I've been begging for... Gosh for 7 years now. And it has already helped so much...
I know that it can feel perhaps shallow to just give scriptures.... I feel angry when people quote scriptures at me when I feel so low. But my counselor has been teaching me truth in scripture. He has been leading me through the word to begin to see what Jesus says about who I am.

This is Really true!
Your worth is not due to what you do, how you live or how you look. Your worth and value is ascribed to you because of the person who bought you put a price on you. A very dear and high price. He bought you with the BLOOD OF HIS MOST BELOVED AND PERFECT SON.

Ask any NORMAL parent. This is a price that is too dear to pay. That is too costly. I wanted to take time to write some scriptures that came to mind, which could help you combat these terrible thoughts. Satan is the ACCUSER OF THE BRETHREN.
He will come at you with those low blows. Because he can. Because he knows your hurts and your insecurities and he makes the voices sound like your own. GOD WOULD NEVER SAY THOSE THINGS ABOUT OR TO YOU.

You are precious, dearly beloved.


You're alone - For hasn’t he promised you (little mermaid), “I will never leave you(little mermaid) alone, never! And I will not loosen my grip on your (little mermaid's) life!” Heb 13:5

No one will ever really know you - “Before I shaped you (little mermaid) in the womb, I knew all about you(little mermaid). Before you (little mermaid) saw the light of day, I had holy plans for you (little mermaid)" Jeremiah 1:5

Because no one wants to know you - My thoughts toward you(little mermaid) are countless as the sand on the seashore. Psalm 119:17.


You're worthless and disgusting - Sister! So many scriptures come to mind that say the exact OPPOSITE of this lie! (John 3:16; Matthew 10:31; But this is one I chose for now:
Since you (little mermaid) are (is) cherished and precious in my eyes, and because I love you (little mermaid) dearly and want to honor you (little mermaid), I willingly give up nations in exchange for you (little mermaid)— a man (JESUS) to save your (Little mermaid's) life. Isaiah 43:4
and also:
Every part of you (little mermaid) is so beautiful, my darling(little mermaid).
Perfect is your(little mermaid) beauty, without flaw within. Song of Songs 4:7


You have ruined yourself - Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you (little mermaid) not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. Isaiah 43: 18-19

You're fat and have no self control - But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. Galatians 5:22-23

God is ashamed of you - Jesus, the Holy One, makes us (little mermaid) holy. And as sons and daughters, we (little mermaid) now belong to his same Father, so he is not ashamed or embarrassed to introduce us (little mermaid) as his brothers and sisters! Hebrews 2:11

And for that you will no longer be useful (Jesus did not save you because he needs you to be useful. He saved you because he ABSOLUTELY CAN"T STAND NOT HAVING YOU! He loves you, delights in you and cherishes you!) - You shall be a crown of beauty in the hand of the Lord, and a royal diadem in the hand of your God. You shall no more be termed Forsaken, and your land shall no more be termed Desolate, but you shall be called My Delight Is in Her, and your land Married; for the Lord delights in you, and your land shall be married. For as a young man marries a young woman, so shall your sons marry you, and as the bridegroom rejoices over the bride, so shall your God rejoice over you. Isaiah 62:3-5

You are like a broken vase- May God himself, the God who makes everything holy and whole, make you (little mermaid) holy and whole, put you (little mermaid) together - spirit, soul, and body - and keep you (little mermaid) fit for the coming of our Master, Jesus Christ. The One who called you is completely dependable. If he said it, he'll do it! 1 Thessalonians 5:23+24

Ugly and useless- Or do you (little mermaid) not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You (Little mermaid is) are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Love you sissy! My Inbox is open for you to drop a message if you need to!!
also listen to this song tonight if you have a chance. Turn the lights off... and turn the VOLUME UPPPP! You won't regret it. Actually if you can, listen to it with head phones and SOAK up the Father's love for you

Satisfy - worship Mob... LISTEN TO IT
 
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It is within your power to change the things you don't like about yourself. We can either wallow in self pity or take that bold step. Stay strong and aim to improve every day, you can do it.