I cannot understand the need for the crucifixion-and i think it’s holding my Christian life back

I believe the error is (and I am only going by what you have written here) you have never truly given your life to God. You have never truly accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior of your life. You continue to rely on your own understanding of Scripture, and Gods salvation plan. You will never be able to fully understand Scripture until you surrender your whole body, mind and spirit to God, ask Christ into your life as Lord and Savior, receive the indwelling presence of the Holy Spirit, WHO will impart "understanding of all things" to you.

The only thing that stops you from being a Christian is your own disbelief. Just as disbelief stops all who are not Christians from being so. There are only Christians and non Christians. True Christian is not a category in the equation. Either you are, or you are not.

I have to wonder, I pray you are, if you are "truly" seeking to become a Christian? All one has to do is "BELIEVE." Surrender their lives to God, and accept Jesus into their lives as Lord and Savior.

You may need to find a Church, a Pastor, or one or more Christians to join with you in prayer, as you seek to become a believer.

God bless you in your effort if it is sincere, and I will pray you "truly" seek Him. For those that "truly" seek Him, WILL find Him.

Deuteronomy 4:29
Proverbs 8:17
Jeremiah 29:12-14
Matthew 7:7,8
Lamentations 3:25
Isaiah 55:6,7
Psalms 119:10
Matthew 6:33
Hebrews 11:6
James 4:8
Psalms 119:2

If you read these, and "truly" believe, you will find God, for He will find you.

You my dear are just the sort of fanatic that make new Believers think twice about becoming a Christian ✝️

Neither do I 🤷‍♂️ It makes me sad 😔 and scared 😦 that I can’t comprehend the most important part of my own faith

Thanks Lucy ✌️🙂You are right about the 🇺🇸 element of this site. I thought it was a 🇬🇧✝️Forum? I have read all the gospels and all Paul’s letters and am now on a mission to complete the bible cover to cover-I’m currently at Joshua 12. I’m sorry if it was disrespectful but all the churches i have attended here are very snobby. I’ve been advised to try the Salvation Army church,

How hell is defined is key to understanding. If a person makes the claim that some suffer after taking their last breath .The doctrine is destroyed

The letter of the law "death" as the sufferings of hell this life applies to all flesh .In dying death will occur. And not. . "you shall surely not die" But will still be breathing even cover with dust or clay

I used to be more supportive of the death penalty . But Genesis 4 sets the rule of faith . God in effect said to protect the sufferings of Cain it will go on until one takes the last breath . Those who would interfere would also be subject to sufferings without the rest of the gospel. Unlike Abel the first martyr who did rest yoked with Christ in who Christ had grace upon .

Cain tried to bargain for the death penalty.( My punishment is greater than I can bear) Christ who did bear that burden with Abel said no. . according to the mark of his word it will not return void he will surfer with no rest. .

Geneisis 4:12-15 When thou tillest the ground, it shall not henceforth yield unto thee her strength; a fugitive and a vagabond shalt thou be in the earth.

And Cain said unto the Lord, My punishment is greater than I can bear. Behold, thou hast driven me out this day from the face of the earth; and from thy face shall I be hid; and I shall be a fugitive and a vagabond in the earth; and it shall come to pass, that every one that findeth me shall slay me. And the Lord said unto him, Therefore whosoever slayeth Cain, vengeance shall be taken on him sevenfold. And the Lord set a mark upon Cain, lest any finding him should kill him.

If Christ has begun the good work of his rest (sabaath) in you he will finish it till the end. (Philipian1:6)

The faith of Christ the faith of God that works in us . . . is not of us.. . lest any man boast in self pride. Be strengthened by His.

It's like gravity, it happened because it had to.
It is indeed only up to you to accept it or despise it.
Just don't be like the world, that want everybody to "just go to heaven" and nobody to be punished, that is except Hitler, and sometimes they remember to exempt rapists and child molesters.
As for me, I don't believe in human sense of judgment any more it's nothing but hypocrisy.

Call me a silly old fool but i do want most people to go to heaven. As a fellow Christian ✝️ said to me when i asked him about the evil 😈 in the word “there is more of gods love 💕 than there is evil in the world” As for the crucifixion-i accept it but am baffled by it 🩸

Me too. There is a sliver of hope I have about it. But we will see what happens. Maybe God surprises us. If He told us that piece of news now, it would be a rope to hang ourselves. So if it happens... it will be a surprise.
What I was pointing out was the word "except" showing the hypocrisy. Most people still want some people (of their choosing) to go to hell whether they admit it or not, yet they complain about hell existing.

I shall read and re read the verses you have given me 👍 I have tried repentance,asking the lord to come into my 💖...what more?

Because that should have been you put to death. Because murdering God is what the world wants to do in its heart, even what we ourselves also desired before He redeemed us.

You shouldn't let whatever it is you call 'snobbery' keep you from going to church and finding out what these things are about. Isn't that a bit of 'snobbery' on your part? Be the better person, not the same person in a slightly different way. How important is your faith to you? More important than feeling slighted by someone?

I agree. I think 🤔 this world 🌎 does want to murder god-or pretend he’s not there and hope for the best on judgement day 👼

How Deep The Father's Love For Us

This song came to mind for me in relation to the question you ask

its important to note the resurrection. It was not a tragedy He rose again ,and is alive today .I can't think of any other person to have placed my trust in than Jesus.

I'm in the 🇬🇧

Beleive his understanding that works in you a source of his faithfulness and not that of our own . . .a source of doubt. . . .it can take away the wondering. We repent when Christ works in us giving us ears to hear his will and empower us to believe and do his good pleasure

I think it is the reason why Jesus told Nicodemus to wonder or marvel not in regard to the greatest miracle "born again" resist the devil with the faith given. . . he will flee.