Of Singleness/Celibacy/Marriage Minded/Sexual Frustration

Pornography, masturbation and fornication are a sin, these are the things that I have prayed against when I became a Christian, I stayed months without doing them, also with a prayer/hope that God will gives me a wife/family and I will be really believing that and having faith. But then after around 8 months or so I fornicated or I watch porn and masturbate. Also i can be with a lady and both us being celibate but along the way we break up after many months or a year, from there I meet someone else and we fornicate then break up and then I go back to porn and masturbation.

It's really frustrating that if you're not careful you can even be angry at God and bitter because all you want is a wife, you don't want to do sexual sin and you have done it all (to be pure) but then through burning with passion then you end up succumbing to temptation. I am a 42 year old man with no children, and sometimes I wonder for how long am I going to wait and keep falling back to sexual sin. Sometimes I have thoughts of getting just a lady from the world, get tested and make child with. You know, it's just sooo frustrating, just yesterday I succumbed to porn and masturbation after fornication weeks before that, this is after I have stayed for almost a year celibate. IT'S A BATTLE BRETHRENS.

Please help with advises.

Pornography, masturbation and fornication are a sin, these are the things that I have prayed against when I became a Christian, I stayed months without doing them, also with a prayer/hope that God will gives me a wife/family and I will be really believing that and having faith. But then after around 8 months or so I fornicated or I watch porn and masturbate. Also i can be with a lady and both us being celibate but along the way we break up after many months or a year, from there I meet someone else and we fornicate then break up and then I go back to porn and masturbation.

It's really frustrating that if you're not careful you can even be angry at God and bitter because all you want is a wife, you don't want to do sexual sin and you have done it all (to be pure) but then through burning with passion then you end up succumbing to temptation. I am a 42 year old man with no children, and sometimes I wonder for how long am I going to wait and keep falling back to sexual sin. Sometimes I have thoughts of getting just a lady from the world, get tested and make child with. You know, it's just sooo frustrating, just yesterday I succumbed to porn and masturbation after fornication weeks before that, this is after I have stayed for almost a year celibate. IT'S A BATTLE BRETHRENS.

Please help with advises.

For me the pain of not sinning was paired with the pleasure of His company and i realized i love Him far more than the sin.

I know this sounds ridiculous, but in earlier days i looked for the temptation and hoped for it for the superior pleasure of His company.

It was latter by a month that He told me He loved me while i was worshipping Him at the airport (This July two years ago)

Though it happens, i never want to be apart from the conscious knowledge of His presence….. which is up to Him. I know He will return when He wants to, i accept it.

I know how greatly He loves me, and His spirit has let me know more (He is infinite) about who He is.

1 Corinthians 6:15-20

King James Version

15 Know ye not that your bodies are the members of Christ? shall I then take the members of Christ, and make them the members of an harlot? God forbid.
16 What? know ye not that he which is joined to an harlot is one body? for two, saith he, shall be one flesh.
17 But he that is joined unto the Lord is one spirit.
18 Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body.
19 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.

Caring about others is the cure.

Focusing on stopping only leads to frustration....love others more.

That's about the size of it.

For anything we are not supposed to do, why do we not do it? Just because "good little christians are not supposed to"? Following a rule just to follow the rule, just because that's what we're supposed to do, makes resentment and eventually ends in burnout.

If we understand WHY we are not supposed to do it, it makes it a lot easier to not do it. Or that's how it works for me anyway. I don't avoid profanity because that's the rule for Christians. I could cuss a blue streak if I wanted to. But I find it keeps my mind sharp and my communication precise to actually think about what I want to say instead of just slamming out some cuss words.

That's about the size of it.

For anything we are not supposed to do, why do we not do it? Just because "good little christians are not supposed to"? Following a rule just to follow the rule, just because that's what we're supposed to do, makes resentment and eventually ends in burnout.

If we understand WHY we are not supposed to do it, it makes it a lot easier to not do it. Or that's how it works for me anyway. I don't avoid profanity because that's the rule for Christians. I could cuss a blue streak if I wanted to. But I find it keeps my mind sharp and my communication precise to actually think about what I want to say instead of just slamming out some cuss words.