Come back...

Okay...I'm really not sure how to put this, so please work with me here...

I've always loved God so much, and when I was a child, I had this passion like never before, on church, praying, everything....well I've had periods in life off and on of not being as close I should be and all, and then being on the strongest level possible...as we all have....

Well, now I feel God's speaking to me about this, and He's saying to me, "My child, come back to me, the way you were as a child, so pure, so innocent, so loving, so kind, fully relying on me, not worrying about things so much." Much more, anyways, that's part of it.

The passion and all is still there, however, as we all do, I feel I've failed God in many ways. I know He wants to draw me back in even closer than before. I'm more than willing to allow Him to do so, it's just...well I can't put this in words. There's a lot on my mind and heart, and if you'd pray, I'd really appreciate it. Thanks and God bless.

Thanks for the prayer, however, it's not really shame....I've had an extreamly rough life, times that drew me into God, and times that made me want to just give up on life,and pushed me away from Him. I take full responsability for it, however, it's not shame. Like I said everyone has had this struggle in life, and in their walk/relationship with the Lord, and the first one to say they haven't, is lying to your face. I'm only human, I know that, it'll get better, I just have so much going on, with the Lord working on me, revealing things to me and all, family issues, etc. until it's not very easy to take it all in.