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Father you see my cries and hear the desires of my heart. You see the confusion, the lies, and the fear I carry. I just want a clear direction. Where do I go father? am I on the right path? am I lost? are you pleased with me? Are you proud of me? I need you lord. You love me more than anyone. You see my heart and know me better than myself, but where am I going lord, can you hear me? Forgive me for turning my back on you.. for you never leave us but it's us that leave you.. I just want to experience true joy.. true peace within.. I want to be a living inspiration and a witness of your glory. I truly desire to be your daughter and I truly desire for you to be proud of me. I am willing to go where you want me to go, even if it hurts. but lord tell me, who am I to you? am I a bad person? am I evil? if so I do not desire to be.. I want to be so beautiful. Like the flowers in heaven that sing praises you to you. So beautiful like the animals you've created with your thoughts. Father, I need you and you need me. I need to be strong, I need to go on.. but I only desire to depend on your strength and I want strength like an eagle so I can soar passed what my heart is feeling right now. Father can you hear me? do you see me? do you love me? because I need to know, in order to be encouraged.. dear father hear my heart, she my desires and match it with your love.. Thank you for understanding me and teach me how to understand myself.. to really love myself, because how can I love another if I don't? Father heal me and restore my heart, I pray in Jesus name, allow me to see through your eyes, allow me to know what's in your heart, because if I can see myself in your eyes I can know what I mean to you. Amen.
 
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crmvet

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Amen and amen
 

levi85

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Father God bless Sunlight77 and this prayer. In Jesus righteous name, Amen!
 

stillness

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Sunlight, in my first reply to you, intended to say: You have lots to be thankful for, like: being pretty is not against the law. lol, felt you would misunderstand. To inspire people when your beautiful, you can be miss-understood. There is hidden meaning: understanding is of little value, so is "Favor is deceitful and beauty is vain; but a woman who fears the Lord she shall be praised." Bear with me for saying but if you try to look your best to feel adequate, I suggest the opposite, just to be plain Jane (plain Sunlight in your case), (with the understanding that there is a time for everything). We struggle for acceptance until we find it in God, rather than needing affirmation of people: that takes maturity. Patient with yourself and others, unaffected by circumstances and mindful that we are patient in God, who is patient with us. Forgetting what is behind, is One thing Grace enables us to do to move forward: to go on to know the Lord.
"One thing is needful and Mary has chosen that good part which shall not be taken from her."
Her sins witch were many are forgiven because she Loved much."
Mary Magdalene expressed such appreciation to the Lord for taking her blame away, that Jesus expressed His appreciation for her, that she chose the One thing needful. It's easy to miss this, Jesus needed Her anointing of appreciation as encouragement, on His Way to the cross.
Jesus still suffers with us and His servants suffer with Him.
Suffering is involved in letting go of our old life, it's being identified with Him in His death."
One thing I do, forgetting what is behind I press on,"
Count it all joy that we can get up and go on.
"His mercy is new every morning, Your great Faithfulness."
 
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Sunlight, in my first reply to you, intended to say: You have lots to be thankful for, like: being pretty is not against the law. lol, felt you would misunderstand. To inspire people when your beautiful, you can be miss-understood. There is hidden meaning: understanding is of little value, so is "Favor is deceitful and beauty is vain; but a woman who fears the Lord she shall be praised." Bear with me for saying but if you try to look your best to feel adequate, I suggest the opposite, just to be plain Jane (plain Sunlight in your case), (with the understanding that there is a time for everything). We struggle for acceptance until we find it in God, rather than needing affirmation of people: that takes maturity. Patient with yourself and others, unaffected by circumstances and mindful that we are patient in God, who is patient with us. Forgetting what is behind, is One thing Grace enables us to do to move forward: to go on to know the Lord.
"One thing is needful and Mary has chosen that good part which shall not be taken from her."
Her sins witch were many are forgiven because she Loved much."
Mary Magdalene expressed such appreciation to the Lord for taking her blame away, that Jesus expressed His appreciation for her, that she chose the One thing needful. It's easy to miss this, Jesus needed Her anointing of appreciation as encouragement, on His Way to the cross.
Jesus still suffers with us and His servants suffer with Him.
Suffering is involved in letting go of our old life, it's being identified with Him in His death."
One thing I do, forgetting what is behind I press on,"
Count it all joy that we can get up and go on.
"His mercy is new every morning, Your great Faithfulness."
Hi love. I get what you're saying but I mean beautiful as something deeper.. something that is unseen but seen, if you know what I mean. To me beauty used to be physical and I did seek approval from the outward appearance but the beauty that I desire is to be beautiful way beyond physical. because I know now that physical beauty does not last. but if you re read what I post I said I desire to be "beautiful like the flowers that praise you" meaning higher than any physical beauty can bring me. Beauty is kindness, gentleness, lovingness, something that is deep within. I do understand your responds and I gladly receive it, I do apologize for the misunderstanding of what I wrote.
 

stillness

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Thanks for your response Sunlight,
Don't feel that we misunderstand each other but that we need to get past our understanding to be living in him. Inner beauty described from Marie Magdalene is to express thanksgiving appreciation for the Simplicity of Christ in us. What I meant by plain Sunshine, is not to be distracted with outward things, especially for approval. I liked your picture and by the way, if you removed it because of what I wrote you did misunderstand and it's ok to be misunderstood, what maters is that we continue in Love. Today was a battle, every other day seems to be a battle. "In patient continuing in well doing we shall reap if we faint not." Inner beauty described by Mary Magdalene to the Lord is more important that caring for the Poor. Without this inner beauty our care for the lost would only keep them in their comfort zone. The way Jesus said it: "You seek me because you did eat of the loaves and fishes and were filled, not because you saw the miracle's and believed."
I addressed the Lord concerning the poor about 20 years ago, saying: Lord you know where all the gold is, You could show me and I'll feed the poor? He replied: It would only make you more conceited.
I had accepted his answer but it took years to figure out that I was praying in my name: You could show me and I...
You expressed desire to serve the Lord: living in His sight, and cant think of a greater example that Marie Magdalene, even for me to follow. Paul's example of reaching the lost seems to be greater but we are not to compare ourselves among ourselves. We are to pray for the anointing, without the Holy Spirit to touch peoples hearts our words fall flat.
May we grow in Love and patience accepting that "Through much trouble we enter His Kingdom."
 
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Thanks for your response Sunlight,
Don't feel that we misunderstand each other but that we need to get past our understanding to be living in him. Inner beauty described from Marie Magdalene is to express thanksgiving appreciation for the Simplicity of Christ in us. What I meant by plain Sunshine, is not to be distracted with outward things, especially for approval. I liked your picture and by the way, if you removed it because of what I wrote you did misunderstand and it's ok to be misunderstood, what maters is that we continue in Love. Today was a battle, every other day seems to be a battle. "In patient continuing in well doing we shall reap if we faint not." Inner beauty described by Mary Magdalene to the Lord is more important that caring for the Poor. Without this inner beauty our care for the lost would only keep them in their comfort zone. The way Jesus said it: "You seek me because you did eat of the loaves and fishes and were filled, not because you saw the miracle's and believed."
I addressed the Lord concerning the poor about 20 years ago, saying: Lord you know where all the gold is, You could show me and I'll feed the poor? He replied: It would only make you more conceited.
I had accepted his answer but it took years to figure out that I was praying in my name: You could show me and I...
You expressed desire to serve the Lord: living in His sight, and cant think of a greater example that Marie Magdalene, even for me to follow. Paul's example of reaching the lost seems to be greater but we are not to compare ourselves among ourselves. We are to pray for the anointing, without the Holy Spirit to touch peoples hearts our words fall flat.
May we grow in Love and patience accepting that "Through much trouble we enter His Kingdom."
This is very beautifully said and well explained. I am in total agreement with you because I have prayed to God in vain concerning me & I understand now that it was vain and I need to repent and pray the right way. according to his will. Because even if we pray in vain it is for our own pleasures but does it last? no.. doing what God intends for us may be hard for us since we human beings are keen to pride. I thank you so so much and I can tell you're a beautiful person. Keep spreading wisdom and love! Many blessings to you.
 

stillness

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This is very beautifully said and well explained. I am in total agreement with you because I have prayed to God in vain concerning me & I understand now that it was vain and I need to repent and pray the right way. according to his will. Because even if we pray in vain it is for our own pleasures but does it last? no.. doing what God intends for us may be hard for us since we human beings are keen to pride. I thank you so so much and I can tell you're a beautiful person. Keep spreading wisdom and love! Many blessings to you.
Sunlight, about the difference between getting past your understanding in prayer and thinking that you need to repent.
You don't need to repent of how you are praying, God loves us as we are, and approaching Him, He does not turn anyone away. Some are privileged to hear Him because we don't have any healthy relationships: there is no-one left, to distract us. This gift of a word of knowledge is not a sign of maturity but His response to our great need. About getting past our understanding praying in the Spirit (praying in tongues) gets past our understanding, this gift is so controversial that it shows the trouble we have in getting past our understanding. We all need to see differently from God's perspective, to change as we behold Him, but don't try repenting of how you pray, continue to come as you are. Repenting is of what turns us away from Him, to think we can take things in our hands again. I often try and leave myself out of my prayer, as there is no I mentioned in the Lord's prayer, but now considering that I should not try to pray correctly in my understanding but to see past it, as otherwise we can be trying too hard and not accomplishing anything. "We Know not how to pray as we should, but the Holy Spirit prays for us with groaning's that cant be uttered."
Sunlight there is not a simple change, that we can make, if there was I would know by now, rather a continual returning, "His Mercies are new every morning," because we need this. If you still question how you are being loved by God, I recommend you watch a few videos of Dean Braxton who went to heaven, you will come across others as well, whose experience agree. I happen to know God is jealous of you, but that "Love does not insist on it's own way." And that you will see differently.
 
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Sunlight, about the difference between getting past your understanding in prayer and thinking that you need to repent.
You don't need to repent of how you are praying, God loves us as we are, and approaching Him, He does not turn anyone away. Some are privileged to hear Him because we don't have any healthy relationships: there is no-one left, to distract us. This gift of a word of knowledge is not a sign of maturity but His response to our great need. About getting past our understanding praying in the Spirit (praying in tongues) gets past our understanding, this gift is so controversial that it shows the trouble we have in getting past our understanding. We all need to see differently from God's perspective, to change as we behold Him, but don't try repenting of how you pray, continue to come as you are. Repenting is of what turns us away from Him, to think we can take things in our hands again. I often try and leave myself out of my prayer, as there is no I mentioned in the Lord's prayer, but now considering that I should not try to pray correctly in my understanding but to see past it, as otherwise we can be trying too hard and not accomplishing anything. "We Know not how to pray as we should, but the Holy Spirit prays for us with groaning's that cant be uttered."
Sunlight there is not a simple change, that we can make, if there was I would know by now, rather a continual returning, "His Mercies are new every morning," because we need this. If you still question how you are being loved by God, I recommend you watch a few videos of Dean Braxton who went to heaven, you will come across others as well, whose experience agree. I happen to know God is jealous of you, but that "Love does not insist on it's own way." And that you will see differently.

Thank you for this love!
 

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Father, we pray that Sunlight will hear you when you speak. When we are in doubt, you strengthen our faith; when we fall, you raise us up; when we feel lost, you light our way. And all the while You guide us with Your merciful, loving hand. Let us meet each day with a faithful, courageous heart, Knowing you provide all our needs. We pray these things in the name of our Savior, who is Christ our Lord and Savior.......AMEN.