- Feb 3, 2018
Father you see my cries and hear the desires of my heart. You see the confusion, the lies, and the fear I carry. I just want a clear direction. Where do I go father? am I on the right path? am I lost? are you pleased with me? Are you proud of me? I need you lord. You love me more than anyone. You see my heart and know me better than myself, but where am I going lord, can you hear me? Forgive me for turning my back on you.. for you never leave us but it's us that leave you.. I just want to experience true joy.. true peace within.. I want to be a living inspiration and a witness of your glory. I truly desire to be your daughter and I truly desire for you to be proud of me. I am willing to go where you want me to go, even if it hurts. but lord tell me, who am I to you? am I a bad person? am I evil? if so I do not desire to be.. I want to be so beautiful. Like the flowers in heaven that sing praises you to you. So beautiful like the animals you've created with your thoughts. Father, I need you and you need me. I need to be strong, I need to go on.. but I only desire to depend on your strength and I want strength like an eagle so I can soar passed what my heart is feeling right now. Father can you hear me? do you see me? do you love me? because I need to know, in order to be encouraged.. dear father hear my heart, she my desires and match it with your love.. Thank you for understanding me and teach me how to understand myself.. to really love myself, because how can I love another if I don't? Father heal me and restore my heart, I pray in Jesus name, allow me to see through your eyes, allow me to know what's in your heart, because if I can see myself in your eyes I can know what I mean to you. Amen.