Hey Zeb, God is big, trust him, he will bring you thru, he knowz your heart , but most of all he luvs you the way you are, you do not have to be perfect in him, my 15 year old daughter was a alcoholic, she drank evry day, evry chance she drank, anything and evrything, she has been sober 17 days now, her life haz turned for the better, i wanted my daughter bac nd i got her bac, you c it duznt matter our situation, or that we fall down, and we mite give up but god never gives up, he wiil chase you, nd you cannot hide. but man takes praise, but you know itz all god, he will deliver you, trust!!!