I need prayer! really bad :( My heart is falling apart!

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karenhdz

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My heart is falling apart from decisions ive been making lately. Im a believer with strong convictions and ive been messing up really bad. For four years i dedicated my life to serve God at my church. Recently i moved to another country and ever since i got here ive been making a lot of bad decisions that go against God and i feel so ashamed and i dont know what to do. I feel anxcious and horrible. I cant sleep and i keep thinking of the bad ive done. I pray but its not enough. I wish i was away somewhere alone....BUT im not. I recently got with a guy thats not a believer and thats how it all started. I need prayer and advise. Thank you and God bless! :(
 
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LynnJ

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Hello Karen,

My heart breaks with you. I, too, have made unwise decisions in my past that had haunted me until the Holy Spirit reminded me that God gives second chances . . . and third, and fourth, and so on . . . As long as we are sincere when we approach Him, with humility and confessing and repenting of our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us. Romans 8 also reminds us that there is no condemnation in Christ. If Christ no longer condemns you, then you no longer need to condemn yourself. Easier said than done, I know. But I will stand with you in prayer that as you draw close to God you will feel His presence, trust His forgiveness, and lean on Him for all future decisions.
 
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Ayanda

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God says if we confess our sins and repent he is just 2 forgive. God knew b4 hand that we will sin thats why he sent Jesus to wash away our sins,the biggest sin is not 2 forgive yoself coz God has. God loves u
 
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karenhdz

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Thankyou so much Lynn. I really feel alone in this. I know God is with me but i miss my family and i cant talk to anyone about this here. Thats why i looked for a chat. Im so ashamed and i cant open my mouth to confress anything to anyone. Thats why im here. The lord saids that if we confess our sins to each other so that we could receive prayer etc etc and be healed. Thats why im doing this. In a way i need to confress what ive been doing to be free. I want to be free from guilt. I just feel so weak right now. Its been about 4 years since i felt this and im scared. The last time i felt like this God healed me, but bc i did the right thing. I feel like ive made so many bad decisions in such little time. I dont know who iam right now and i feel discusting. My boyfriend doesnt understand me. He is the main reason why im feeling this way. How could he understand me if he is not a believer and he doesnt fear and love God? How could i break it off without hurting him? I just dont know how i got myself into this mess....! Can you please give me some advise. I havent found a church here so i have no one thats a believer to get advise from. Im in sooo much need. God knows this. I even feel shacky from being scared. I want this feeling to go away. I wish it was a bad dream...but its not. Im living it and im really sad. Ive only slept 4 hours :(
 

BLC

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Don't fear sin or anything you have done. Go to God by faith, just as you are, and let God love you. His love has never changed toward you and He is always waiting to be gracious. You belong to Him and He has never left you nor will He forsake you. His mercy and goodness has been following you every day (Psalms 23:6). This is a time to get to know Him in your situation. There is a beautiful promise from God in (Psalms 48:2), He is 'Beautiful for situation' His grace will give you strength in your weakest moment. Put your eyes upon Him and not the situation. This trial of your faith is going to come out more precious then gold, because God has an eternal weight of glory to give you as you trust Him.

We will all bear this with you as you walk with God in this situation.