The past couple of weeks I seemed to have gotten so far away from God. I’m going through the motions of what we should do as Christians, and have allowed myself to fall back into some bad habits. I also suffer from anxiety, and right now it is eating me alive . My mind is racing, and I question my salvation, based on some of the decisions I’ve made. I want to grow in Christ, it’s just super hard when none of your closest friends are Christians. So easy to fall back into old habits when you associate yourself with them. I feel lost, I feel hopeless, I need God , and I want him to be #1 in my life. I think about how bad I’ve let him down the past eeek or so. I’ve repented , and plan on living the life God has for me, not the world . Anyone who could life me up in prayer I surely would appreciate it. The devil has been ruling my life and it must stop. Thanks in advance.