Overwhelmed

Hi friends, I'm asking for your help. Please pray for me as I'm really overwhelmed on the inside right now. I started studying in uni two months ago, while I work full time. It shouldn't be that bad except I took more modules than I can handle, and that's because I'm trying to finish within two years. Although I'm very grateful for my job, it's not really my forte and the environment is getting more toxic everyday - also there is news that we may or may not have this job anymore next year. I have less and less reasons to stay but I can't just easily find another job without academic upgrade (ugh the struggles of living on earth), and as a foreigner - it was a miracle that I got this job in the first place (I didn't qualify, it was an answered prayer).

So the problem now is that my homework, group projects and presentations are piling up on top of my responsibilities at work. And it's frustrating and it's getting to me. I'm a try hard / overachiever so even if I could actually just not care about my textbooks and stuff and just aim for a passing grade, I'd feel bad for not giving it my all. I'm on break from the ministry, I have not been to church for a couple of months now, ugh, and I'm still struggling trying to finish all my projects on time and I really just want to be able to do this without being frustrated. I just want to enjoy this season of life and not be burdened.

And.. I don't do well under pressure. I tend to drop everything and do something else entirely unproductive because "to heck with this" is what I tell myself. Recently, I've been noticing myself shutting down when I feel too overwhelmed and not doing anything all day. Then I feel guilty for wasting time and try harder the next day. It's exhausting and it's affecting my emotions as well and I lose sight of whats important.

TLDR: Please pray for peace of mind, wisdom and strength to face go through this season of my life, grace and favor to not lose sight of what Jesus has called me to do, faith that Jesus will get me through this and joy while I'm here. Thank you all <3

Hi Abi...Maybe God is asking you to drop something, after all He is not going to burden you with such a heavy weight ...Things change as we get older, have a good look in front of you and see what it is that is truly making you feel this way, could it be that you alone are putting this weight on your own shoulders, we are great at doing that, yet Jesus tells us to give Him all our burdens, and when we do, we just as more to the space that He has provided for ...

Maybe if you drop some things that you are putting on yourself, then all other things will fall into place through Gods will...Write a list of what you are holding onto so you can see with your own eyes, run a nice hot bubbly bath if you can, light a candle as you soak, tell God all your worries, for He knows them anyway, but you confessing them will bring answered prayer...

Then go and sit on your bed, pen and paper and write the most important things to the least, I hope this brings some organisation to your life ...xox...

Oh, I know the feeling. Trying to study full time beside a full job and trying to have a life doesn't add up. I am in the middle of it, too. Always feeling I am behind in both studies and at work. I think it is a season I have to go through, though.

I pray for God to help you prioritize your tasks and to help you have a clear head. Give God the glory both at work and at studies. He will help you through this. Perhaps we both have to learn our limitations, or rather to lean on Him when things are getting too much.

Also, and I'm so sorry if I'm whining right now, I just really want to vent. I don't have a fixed schedule at work. We get this monthly schedules sent out to us, sometimes I work in the morning, sometimes in the evening. My class schedule, however, is fixed. So every month I have to come up with my own schedule and send emails to all the people I need to swap days with. And of course it feels bad to be owing everyone a favour every time. I try to repay them in ways I could like bring them lunch or dinner. All these I have to plan as well cause we don't always work together. It sucks ugh. But the kind of suck that you don't want to let go because I can't just give up my studies for somethings so trivial (and these trivial things are driving me crazy). I'd love to give up my job but I need to eat I need to pay for my studies. Not to mention even, my responsibilities at home. My dad, is rather different. He didn't want to provide for his children's studies. I don't wanna say he's selfish, but that seems to be the best explanation for the outsider. We had to convince him to at least provide for food. It's difficult to explain without telling the whole story. So right now, my sister (25) who only works freelance animation and graphic arts, is the one providing for my mother and my brother and is paying our family mortgage under my name and is also paying for the family car. So. Part of the reason I want to finish soon is so she CAN study as well and that I can ease her burden. My brother is 14 so we have enough time to save up for him. Aaaaaahhhh these things are too complicated to think about right now I wanna run away.

Luke 1:37...