Angie, Some encouragement for you in the Lord...A few of my favorite scriptures in the bible is Psalms 37:4..Take delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalms 27:14...Wait on the Lord, be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart. Wait I say upon the Lord. Jeremiah 29:11...For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Proverbs 3:5-6...Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight.
My prayer for you is that you will simply stop striving for the things you want in life, and rest your hopes & dreams completely in the hands of your Heavenly Father. He knows the deepest desires of your heart. Even before you even know the things you need or desire in life, He already knows. Another scripture that come to mind as I'm typing this is...Mathew 6:33...Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things He will give to you. Jesus will give you peace within your soul & spirit when you learn to Trust Him completely with your life, future, hopes & dreams. Seeking His "Will" for your life is important, but waiting upon the Lord and His timing is as important. Spend time with Him, in His word & through prayer, and rest in His presence daily. He will take care of everything else in your life.