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I would like to ask if anyone can pray for me, I have so much stress right now & im trying to not let things get to me.
Lets just say past mistakes that i regret caught up with me.
I have asked God for forgiveness a lot & i will keep till he forgivess me completely.
He has been with me soo much & got me out of tough situations & holded my hand thorough others so i can get through it.
A different situation is back in my first freshman year i faught this one girl, then again in my second freshman year, first time i won second time i was asking for it & i deserved to loss which i did.
Now 3 years later im 18 about to turn 19 in january. she has a baby & also 18.
We go to the same school which is a 6 hour school, mostly people who flunked,teenagers who have kids , are pregnant or want to finish early go there.
Well she is saying she faught me & whopped me, & saying God knows what else about me. I used to be quick to talk back, say something or mean mug, now i dont really care im trying not to look at her, say anything . So far she has not said it to my face but from what i heard she is planning on getting me alone with her little homegirls (friends) to either fight me or jump me.
I dont really talk to anyone in that school since i know the more people you talk to the more problems you have & i just want to graduate, i already have a goals in my life & God is in them.
& on top of that i had a concusion before got hit hard with a metal thing almost a year ago so im afraid that i will get a concusion for fighting & then go to the hospital again & another high hospital bill & right now we berly have any money left over after all the bills.
My grandma is in the hospital, my mom is stressed out with her problems & my problems, my dad i dont even know whats going on in his head but he has done over time at work so im pretty sure he is tired & maybe stressed out. My brother well Thank God right now he is okay =D
Also another reason i dont want to mention that im a afraid might happen if i fight her.
I changed so much & now i dont really let things get to me but she is just pushing it,
She even trying to set me up with guys Trying to get this one guy to talk to me & get me to come over to his house so she can go & do something to me & then throw me on the street with no one to help me.
Thank God i saw what she is planning. Really im not scared of her its just im scared i of something that might happen if i fight (no its not me dying beacause atleast that way i would be out of this world in I pray that i would go live with God in his kingdom)
I just dont want to say what it is, sorry. On myspace she has these girls that are her friends requestion me for God knows what.
I just have to watch my back every minute at school, thats not a human thats a Devil in disguise.
Especially since now i am trying not to sin so much, trying to keep all the commandments, Reading the bible everyday, trying to pray more, & trying to graduate high school I really want to walk that stage with a high school diploma then study phsycology to be able to be a cousolor & that school might be my only chance, So far i have not said anything to any of them but i know that if they keep it i might just end up throwing a punch or saying something which i dont want to.
She keeps saying im talking mess about her to her friends, saying she woopped me, she wants to woop me again but she wants to graduate Since shes almost there & that she dont want no problems but yet she is trying to make all these people i dont even know to hate me & saying all these things some that arnt true.
I know for a fact that is not a human thats the devil trying to get me to get mad & trying to make me curse & go back to being bad & not really caring much like i used to.
& im sad & feel bad for getting mad yesterday i ended up having to leave class to go to the restroom & kick the wall & punch the sink, i was sooo mad i started having to take deep breaths holded back the anger tears which got me more even mad, & then on top of that i screamed at my mom.
Im ashamed for letting her & the devil get to me
I already asked for forgiveness for that.
I know that without God holding my hand i will end up doing something that i dont want to, fighting, getting quicked out of my school, going back to my i dont care ways or something. i know without God i will fall at the feet of my enemy. I have faith in God that i wont fall at the devils feet or her feet but im a little scared God got mad at me for getting mad & screaming at my mom. Im scared that he dont want to look at me, I started feeling lonely & then i dint feel his presence for a while (meanig a sence of peace, a happy feeling that no one can give or anything can give but God kind of a hard feeling to say but a feeling knowing that your not alone) there like before i got mad, so im scared
May God bless you & Thank you for praying & reading all that i wrong =)
Lets just say past mistakes that i regret caught up with me.
I have asked God for forgiveness a lot & i will keep till he forgivess me completely.
He has been with me soo much & got me out of tough situations & holded my hand thorough others so i can get through it.
A different situation is back in my first freshman year i faught this one girl, then again in my second freshman year, first time i won second time i was asking for it & i deserved to loss which i did.
Now 3 years later im 18 about to turn 19 in january. she has a baby & also 18.
We go to the same school which is a 6 hour school, mostly people who flunked,teenagers who have kids , are pregnant or want to finish early go there.
Well she is saying she faught me & whopped me, & saying God knows what else about me. I used to be quick to talk back, say something or mean mug, now i dont really care im trying not to look at her, say anything . So far she has not said it to my face but from what i heard she is planning on getting me alone with her little homegirls (friends) to either fight me or jump me.
I dont really talk to anyone in that school since i know the more people you talk to the more problems you have & i just want to graduate, i already have a goals in my life & God is in them.
& on top of that i had a concusion before got hit hard with a metal thing almost a year ago so im afraid that i will get a concusion for fighting & then go to the hospital again & another high hospital bill & right now we berly have any money left over after all the bills.
My grandma is in the hospital, my mom is stressed out with her problems & my problems, my dad i dont even know whats going on in his head but he has done over time at work so im pretty sure he is tired & maybe stressed out. My brother well Thank God right now he is okay =D
Also another reason i dont want to mention that im a afraid might happen if i fight her.
I changed so much & now i dont really let things get to me but she is just pushing it,
She even trying to set me up with guys Trying to get this one guy to talk to me & get me to come over to his house so she can go & do something to me & then throw me on the street with no one to help me.
Thank God i saw what she is planning. Really im not scared of her its just im scared i of something that might happen if i fight (no its not me dying beacause atleast that way i would be out of this world in I pray that i would go live with God in his kingdom)
I just dont want to say what it is, sorry. On myspace she has these girls that are her friends requestion me for God knows what.
I just have to watch my back every minute at school, thats not a human thats a Devil in disguise.
Especially since now i am trying not to sin so much, trying to keep all the commandments, Reading the bible everyday, trying to pray more, & trying to graduate high school I really want to walk that stage with a high school diploma then study phsycology to be able to be a cousolor & that school might be my only chance, So far i have not said anything to any of them but i know that if they keep it i might just end up throwing a punch or saying something which i dont want to.
She keeps saying im talking mess about her to her friends, saying she woopped me, she wants to woop me again but she wants to graduate Since shes almost there & that she dont want no problems but yet she is trying to make all these people i dont even know to hate me & saying all these things some that arnt true.
I know for a fact that is not a human thats the devil trying to get me to get mad & trying to make me curse & go back to being bad & not really caring much like i used to.
& im sad & feel bad for getting mad yesterday i ended up having to leave class to go to the restroom & kick the wall & punch the sink, i was sooo mad i started having to take deep breaths holded back the anger tears which got me more even mad, & then on top of that i screamed at my mom.
Im ashamed for letting her & the devil get to me
I already asked for forgiveness for that.
I know that without God holding my hand i will end up doing something that i dont want to, fighting, getting quicked out of my school, going back to my i dont care ways or something. i know without God i will fall at the feet of my enemy. I have faith in God that i wont fall at the devils feet or her feet but im a little scared God got mad at me for getting mad & screaming at my mom. Im scared that he dont want to look at me, I started feeling lonely & then i dint feel his presence for a while (meanig a sence of peace, a happy feeling that no one can give or anything can give but God kind of a hard feeling to say but a feeling knowing that your not alone) there like before i got mad, so im scared
May God bless you & Thank you for praying & reading all that i wrong =)