Prayers for my husband

Tonight my husband got a bad temper. Because I didn't get chips and curry in a closed tray from chip shop, he went mad. Because he didn't want to go home. He wanted to eat them in the car away from home. He hates where we live due to a neighbour he doesn't like. I to have to put up with things here but I wouldn't take it out on my husband. He started throwing eggs out of the fridge and looking for an argument. I try not to respond. He said I should go and get layed by another man. The truth is his words cut threw me. It's terrible. Some drug dealers at the side of the chip shop annoyed him because they wouldn't move their car. I get frustrated and frightened by things. I just hope Jesus sees all this. When your husband says bad things it hurts. I know he's poorly, but so am I today.

I feel very vulnerable today, he won't say sorry and I feel his brain is just angry. He's suffering but the truth is I never know what he wants to eat. I'm emotional today but I'm not letting him know that his words hurt, and his anger. He needs to be more patient.

You must feel so alone at times dealing with a terminally sick husband and living far away from your home with neighbors that don't respect you. I mention you often in my morning prayers and will continue to pray for God's will be done for your life and for your husband. It makes me sad when people hurt.

He hurts my feelings so much by his anger. Rod sometimes sees red, and people wind him up. I'm not well tonight with let's say hormones. He's very volitile and I stay our of his way, because he will pick on me about anything. Why can't he be more placid like me. I'm never fast enough for him, because today I don't feel well.

People have a choice to be nasty or patient.

I have been reading your posts for months now, not sure how to respond to them or if I should. I get that you live away from family, but speaking from someone who received abuse (and that's what this is) who has their judgement cloudy when it comes to the way they talk to other people. Have you considered placing them in a facility for a couple weeks so that you can go home and visit family so you can regain your strength in how to care for him. I know it's huge, but something that you need. Trust me, he won't be happy and will fight you on this, but at least you know your husband will be taken care of while you take a timeout. You need a vacation!

He's still quite determined to drive the car and take the dog out. Our neighbours can be a pain I must admit, he gets overtired and snappy. Usually he's OK, but I guess he's stressed at living here as I am and his health issues. I have none to turn to really.

I was doing badly once, and my wife just went through it with me, and never stopped praying.
I'm okay now and I realize what she went through.
God is your great provider.
Don't lose faith, keep going to him always.

Here's the thing, in order for you to care for him, you have to be okay. From yours posts you are tired, have high levels of stress and anxiety, along with fear of losing the love of your life. I bet you he is fearful of not being with you and doesn't know how to manage it. Trust me, you need to be away from him for a little while to get your ducks in a row and they have places he can go while you do this, just talk to his doctor and they will get you in contact

Thanks, everyone, he just has little idea of my hormones and pain, it seems when I'm low he starts. He doesn't seem to have a conscious. I can't get help because he won't entertain nurses or even doctors. I'm trying to get a bungalow near my parents but the ones we have looked at are unsuitable. I'm down on the council list. I feel I can't do anything because of my feet issues, I don't drive either. I suffer with schizophrenia so I know what it's like to fight adversity at times. Yesterday in the park I had tummy pain and felt low, Rod was going on about the neighbours again he never shuts up, and normally I listen. But this day I'm asking God to help me, then I looked up to the sky and a man arranged his beautiful kites in bright colours in the sky. You know it cheered me up no end. The man even came across and talked to us. So all that negative talk about our neighbours making me feel paranoid, then this lovely man talking about his kites. I felt loved and realised I am a worth while person. Rod can be very critical sometimes. So I continue praying for God's Love in my life.

I know I'm standing by my husband no matter what it takes. I'll ask God to keep in our lives.