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Hi! I'd appreciate your prayers for a situation I currently face. I'll try to summarize it all.
A couple years back I got a new job in a place I really never thought I'd be working. Actually, I was miserable most of the time and would have quit, except there was a co-worker there that it seemed like God wanted me to reach out to and share my faith with. So I stuck it out despite being miserable all the time.
There were many times I prayed hard before work and prepared myself with all kinds of Scriptures to share, and then somehow we would never cross paths that day or he would be absent for no apparent reason. I wasn't sure if it was God's way of choosing the right time for me or if it was Satan getting in the way. I figured it was God, since God is more powerful than Satan.
Anyway, over time we had many normal conversations about general things and walls really seemed to be coming down. Then, without a single day's warning, I was laid off and basically cut off from my co-worker completely. That was really hard, and I questioned God's purpose in it all.
However, it turned out to be a blessing in disguise because my new work schedule enabled me to visit my friend during work hours which he was fine with. Our relationship actually grew stronger since I lost my job! But still, I couldn't seem to get to the point of truly sharing my faith even though we talked about his background growing up in a church.
At the same time, I've noticed myself beginning to cover up my own beliefs in order to maintain the friendship. Only in conversation, but I've acted like I hold his same values, which I don't! Instead of being different, I've tried to make myself seem like the same kind of person he is.
I know this is a spiritual battle of some sort. It has been from the very beginning. But I'm struggling to know how to conquer this and really be a true witness, not a lukewarm one. Why am I so scared of losing my friendship, when I know his soul is in the balance? Why do I keep riding the fence in my speech and never get around to admitting I'm really a dedicated Christian who's given his life to Christ? What am I so afraid of...?
I could really use some prayer that Satan will be conquered in this situation, both in my heart and my friend's. Satan wants me to give in to ungodly suggestions from my friend, because he knows that would destroy my testimony. And deep down I'm afraid I'm weak enough to do that at some point...
A couple years back I got a new job in a place I really never thought I'd be working. Actually, I was miserable most of the time and would have quit, except there was a co-worker there that it seemed like God wanted me to reach out to and share my faith with. So I stuck it out despite being miserable all the time.
There were many times I prayed hard before work and prepared myself with all kinds of Scriptures to share, and then somehow we would never cross paths that day or he would be absent for no apparent reason. I wasn't sure if it was God's way of choosing the right time for me or if it was Satan getting in the way. I figured it was God, since God is more powerful than Satan.
Anyway, over time we had many normal conversations about general things and walls really seemed to be coming down. Then, without a single day's warning, I was laid off and basically cut off from my co-worker completely. That was really hard, and I questioned God's purpose in it all.
However, it turned out to be a blessing in disguise because my new work schedule enabled me to visit my friend during work hours which he was fine with. Our relationship actually grew stronger since I lost my job! But still, I couldn't seem to get to the point of truly sharing my faith even though we talked about his background growing up in a church.
At the same time, I've noticed myself beginning to cover up my own beliefs in order to maintain the friendship. Only in conversation, but I've acted like I hold his same values, which I don't! Instead of being different, I've tried to make myself seem like the same kind of person he is.
I know this is a spiritual battle of some sort. It has been from the very beginning. But I'm struggling to know how to conquer this and really be a true witness, not a lukewarm one. Why am I so scared of losing my friendship, when I know his soul is in the balance? Why do I keep riding the fence in my speech and never get around to admitting I'm really a dedicated Christian who's given his life to Christ? What am I so afraid of...?
I could really use some prayer that Satan will be conquered in this situation, both in my heart and my friend's. Satan wants me to give in to ungodly suggestions from my friend, because he knows that would destroy my testimony. And deep down I'm afraid I'm weak enough to do that at some point...