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    Despair Over the Future

    That's weird. Let me try sending you a message.
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    Whatever happens, you can talk to me if you need a friend. I'm a Christian girl, but I will neither judge you nor demand things of you that go against your beliefs. I have a kitty friend too.:)
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    I’m so sorry…
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    I know right? And I’m sorry for your situation. If you wanna chat sometime, I’ll make myself available. Misery loves company anyway. X)
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    Besides, when I write, I'm at least in control of what happens. I get to decide what happens in my world; something I will never have in the real world. In my world, bad guys get their due, good people get rewarded, suffering is not needless, family and friendship is possible, romance is...
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    Not to mention, in my opinion, money can go die an agonizing death in a ditch. I don't know jack about mortgages, taxes, whatever. I genuinely hate money (which is probably a byproduct of my genuine hatred for math). I hate how it's used to measure how much a person is literally worth (don't...
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    I genuinely see my future only as one of loss. Whatever gains I make, I will ultimately lose. But, time is merciless and unforgiving. However much more of it you may want to beg, it will always make you regret biting the hand that feeds you. We live and die at its pleasure.
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    Glad to know I'm not alone in that.
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    And to those who might say I have it real easy, I went through 4 1/2 years of extensive dental reconstruction surgeries. Just about every dental procedure you can think of, I probably had. It was worth it in the end, but it was a long and painful process.
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    I'm 29 years old. I was diagnosed with Asperger's at the age of three. I'm the youngest of three. Both my siblings are married with kids. I still live with my mom and dad, who aren't getting any younger. After high school I attended a community college. But I failed math at least three times in...
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    As it stands, the main thing I associate with being a girl…is being WEAK.
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    It's not just all that that I have an issue with. I am not transgender. I have no desire to have a man's body. But I occasionally wish God had made me a boy cause I identify with them more than my own gender. Ever since I was 8 years old, I knew unequivocally that I did not want to be a mom. If...
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    I am a Christian. I love God (or at least I want to) and the Bible (or at least I want to). But to be brutally honest, there are parts of both that I genuinely do not like. For example - and I really do not mean any offense by this at all - I don't believe in "aging gracefully" because there's...
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    Sir, Ma'am, whatever, this is not a political forum. Keep your politics to yourself or leave.
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    I do like history, partly because it makes me feel a lot more grateful to be living in the time and place I do. But I see the value in learning from the past as well. Plus, I like stories in general, and have been a writer (though not professionally) for at least half my life. I probably...
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    Let me start this by saying I am a Bible-believing Christian. I was raised in the faith and got saved when I was 17. I know my stuff, got it? Anyway, Christians are supposed to have hope, but the problem is, I'm not seeing too much of it right now. I know I live in the first world and therefore...
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    I fear God more than I do love Him

    I've found that I'm unhappy either way.
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    I fear God more than I do love Him

    You misunderstand. I'm talking about when people differentiate between joy and happiness, when it's a false dichotomy.
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    I fear God more than I do love Him

    Thank you everyone who replied. I've gotten a little better in the past 3 years, but I'm still not over it. Another big problem I have is that, I honestly don't believe God wants me to be happy. And don't give me that BS on "he wants us to be joyful, not happy" (I've read enough to prove that...