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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    Forgive me if I seemed to make light of your experiences. I thought you were exaggerating. I'm glad you're putting the effort into distancing yourself from all that. And honestly, Job I think is the most misunderstood book in the Bible, other than maybe Revelation.
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    Thank you for your words. Allow me to respond though. My parents told me. I read about it online. And I tried, multiple times. And I thought love was an action, not a feeling. Doing a duty IS love, especially when you don't feel like doing it and do it for no reward. But here's the kicker. Are...
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    Speaking of which, I just can't imagine God's so-called plan for my life involving anything I might find appealing (if anything I expect the opposite). And even if it did, I would be immediately suspicious, 'cause nothing in life, at least nothing good, is free. I feel guilty simply for wanting...
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    Thank you for your words. I'm glad things seemed to have worked out for you. But your experience is not mine, and mine is no one else's. I did the same thing you did. I did everything I was told to deepen my relationship with God. I tried for a very long time. But it all ended up being for...
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    Even if we have the holy spirit we'll never be perfect. At least not in this life.
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    What book are you talking about?
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    The problem is, God is not the same as another human being. And I'm tired of people acting like he is. I have God. Great. But who's income am I gonna fall back on if I lose mine? Who am I going to spend the holidays, much less the mundane moments of life, with? Who am I going to get hugs and...
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    I've tried another church. It's too exhausting to emotionally start over again and again. Relationships take time to form and many people now do not have that time. I don't like a lot of Christian music and I don't care for online testimonies. With the former, a lot of Christian music sounds...
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    We should all be able to control ourselves. The issue is many men turn to porn instead of marriage as the solution. You know why? There's no commitment involved. Marriage is more than sex, but some couples get together just to have legal sex (legal in Christianity) only to be massively...
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    I've tried professionals, multiple times. Problem is professionals are not friends and can only meet with you once or twice a month for an insane amount of money I can't pay.
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    I've just never felt like I belong anywhere. Even after I became a Christian. It's like I've just never belonged in the secular world or the world of Christians. I'm too different from both. I think differently from the general population and it's not something I can change, however much I wish...
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    Everyone let me leave a word of warning. I have never dated, have never been in love, have never personally experienced romantic love. So I believe I'm qualified to speak on this important matter. If we in the church keep putting marriage/sexual love on a pedestal and keep subtly shaming...
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    I fear God more than I do love Him

    I appreciate your efforts, seriously. This is all very complicated. Keep praying for me.
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    I fear God more than I do love Him

    In all honesty, I think this fear of God may come from something else. I've always been a good girl. I've never slept with anyone. I don't drink, smoke, or do drugs. I don't watch porn. I don't steal what isn't mine. I've never done anything illegal, at least not on purpose. I've never done...
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    Ohm, would you mind if we continue this conversation through personal messaging?
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    When I say I don't want to be a Christian author, I don't mean to disparage them. People should write what they want. But I want to reach outside of my "tribe" so to speak. I'm working on what could be my debut novel.
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    I like theater, I like to write. I don't want to be a Christian author though.
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    On being an endangered species of an endangered species

    I have no money. Besides, flying isn't my favorite method of travel.
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    I fear God more than I do love Him

    God is not obligated to do anything for me and owes me nothing. He was being nice by sending Jesus to die on the cross. Some people may see God's hand at work in this world. Sure, there might be some. But how do we not know most of these things are merely happy coincidences? Like I said, God...