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  1. Dark_Matter

    A new standard for me..

    You don't know the experiences or the battles I had to face, with my salvation when it comes to temptation. How many times I turned down a person, who seems like they really love me, and give me this grand gesture of love, and say I should run to them, and I want to so bad, just because I...
  2. Dark_Matter

    A new standard for me..

    I realize this, but how can we know or worth and esteem if we aren't shown it by someone who lives by love and God's word? That is my point. Plus I have a good enough relationship with God to know I don't need to say it in every post I post. This is merely my observation in life. I know what the...
  3. Dark_Matter

    A new standard for me..

    There is a difference between someone giving you actual real love, compared to someone who is merely throwing you a bone. There is a difference between when a good man keeps his word, and when the other just makes excuses for why he can't. There is a difference between when a good man shows up...
  4. Dark_Matter

    Old Fashioned

    these are Terrible poems haha the closest they come to poetry is the outline lol, but I really appreciate you're kindness. Thankyou 🙂❤
  5. Dark_Matter

    Old Fashioned

    Betrayal You said I betrayed you, but I haven't dated anyone, not yet anyway, I'm just coming out of my shell, talking to other guys is not betraying you, we aren't even married. As far as I'm concerned "We" haven't even happened yet. You got to date and be with who you wanted, but I can't? I...
  6. Dark_Matter

    Old Fashioned

    My grammar screw ups count down *Frustrations*: 1. *You're = your selfish 2. Crap. Oh well...
  7. Dark_Matter

    Old Fashioned

    "just one more time" he said, My reply: well, if this is important to you, then why don't you run to me? When I see you at my door, and we are face to face, then I'll give you my life time. Old Fashioned. It's a small condition, and an even smaller price to pay, for the bigger one I know I...
  8. Dark_Matter

    Ramblings..

    You know.. It's been eleven years now, the same heartache has never changed. I could never prove that I love you, save for that never ending but gentle pain, and fiery embrace and your visitation dreams. It feels like you want something from me, that you want to keep me close in your life, but...
  9. Dark_Matter

    Our Last Goodbye - poem

    I think... I hate poetry. I only learned how to do it because of you. Our Last Goodbye By me All i have ever wanted was to say goodbye To our haunting dream and to the lie. We were never meant to be, This was merely all a test to see if I could set you free. As I look past the shade, so close...
  10. Dark_Matter

    Trust

    Trust These arms are broken and I am just a child, not strong enough from the wicked lusts of men, or the hells of the astral wild. I am a prisoner of my own mind, with blue chains that have bound my right. To keep me at limitation. Is it a merciful judgement or perhaps salvation? Tell me the...
  11. Dark_Matter

    Antisocial

    I don't think I could because I volunteered myself into the hospital a long time ago. I will probably just stick to my pepper spray, but thanks for the suggestion.
  12. Dark_Matter

    Antisocial

    You have a good heart Candi, even after all that you've been through in your life. I don't know what to say, except that I hear you, Thanks for understanding CandieM. This is hard stuff to talk about. I have some pepper spray, I might take some self defense classes when I get a chance. You...
  13. Dark_Matter

    Antisocial

    Wow, do you do reveal all personal information of these "friends" of yours just so you can teach a life lesson? That makes it so much easier to trust.. If you want to be a therapist, you gotta know the meaning of time, trust and confidence...Rushing and shoving the food down my throat won't heal...
  14. Dark_Matter

    Antisocial

    Yeah. I've had a similar, but not the same trauma, in my own life since I was a baby, things happened to me as a kid I wish never did.. I've been threatened to the point of paranoia up to this point in my life. Several attempts of suicide were probably my only escape from the mental torture I...
  15. Dark_Matter

    Antisocial

    I wrote this weeks ago... I'm already in the process of healing but thank you for your wisdom and encouragement.
  16. Dark_Matter

    Signed in Tears

    Signed in Tears By me Do you know what it is like to be hated to the point of death by someone you love? To feel so used and passed over, To be made to feel worthless? Your sad looks, never for me, Your wandering gaze, always searching, Your desire, attraction for beauty, Constantly longing...
  17. Dark_Matter

    Antisocial

    Also please don't diagnose symptoms on me, you're right, you don't know me. Yeah I made a mistake with the title, my bad. It's too late to change it anyway. I will take prayer though.
  18. Dark_Matter

    Antisocial

    Yeah you're right about the definition about Antisocial personality disorder. I just now went back and looked at the definition and realized what it meant. I realize that I should have posted Social anxiety. *shrugs*. crap. oh well. I wouldn't go as far as bi-polar, since I really don't have a...
  19. Dark_Matter

    Antisocial

    Type 2? I have never heard of that. It kind of depends on the person. I've had this problem since childhood, but have been seeking to improve myself since. Even as antisocial as I sound I actually do like being around people, but this mental thing gets in the way where I can't..
  20. Dark_Matter

    Antisocial

    *returns hug* thanks friend. :)