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  1. Gemmy

    Trusting God

    I want to trust God but literally almost every time I decide to my trust in Him, SOMETHING bad happens to me and it makes me want nothing to do with Him. I'm trying but I'm frustrated. Is that His way of saying go away or maybe I'm just too far gone for Him? I don't know but I do know I'm sick...
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    Mysterious illness

    I’ve been dealing with some kind of illness the past couple of weeks and I’m not sure what it is. I’ve been so stressed out and have been in and out of the doctors office but no one can figure out what’s wrong with me. Please pray that I can get this solved and/or that I am healed.
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    Emotionally numb

    Not one of those dark depressing posts I usually make but just needing prayer for my emotions to return. I feel very numb inside, almost like I'm on autopilot. It's very strange. Please pray that I am healed of this. Also, I want to thank you all for always praying for me and sticking by me...
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    Asking God to kill me

    I hate my life and wake up in pain almost everyday due to things that have been done to me. I honestly feel like God doesn’t like me and I wish my mom went through with aborting me when she was pregnant with me.
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    Made a horrible mistake and now I think I'm paying for it

    Can't be mad at anyone but myself right now. I'm dealing with some kind of health scare right now as a result of some bad choices I made 3 weeks ago. Not even exactly sure what's going on except I've been depressed and laying in bed everyday. I have no energy to do anything and have been having...
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    Something has to give

    I don't know why and at this point, I'm tired of figuring out why I have so many trials. Last night, I thought about crashing my car. I am not well. I've literally had all I can take.
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    To accept myself the way I am

    Sometimes, I feel like I’m weird or not enough. I’ll be 30 next year and I haven’t done a lot in my life compared to most people around my age or in my generation. I don’t have a group of friends I can hang out with, I don’t go to clubs or parties, I don’t smoke and very rarely drink (wine). I...
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    God must hate me, ready to explode

    I’ve been under extreme stress the past couple of weeks and I am nearly to a point where I am going to mentally snap. I am now working but still struggling. I have an apartment and am slowly getting the things I need so I can move in but I am paying $635 there and $300 to my parents. My mom goes...
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    Depressed

    Not doing too well but I’m hanging in there. Just feeling very low and tired.
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    A friend of mine

    My prayer request is for a friend named Deslyn. He suffers from depression and some trauma. He lost his mom two years ago and has dealt with some other hardships. Could you guys pray for him for peace and to know he is worth more than he'll ever know. I suffer from depression as well so I know...
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    Still nothing

    If you’ve read any of my past posts, you know what I’m going through and how I’m feeling. That’s really all I can type. I don’t have the strength.
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    Always alone

    Feeling very lonely and frustrated. Single going on two years. I’m still depressed and angry. How is it my ex can go off with a married woman and raise her child and support her but yet I’m still alone trying to support my daughter and I? I feel like I’m being punished everyday I wake up.
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    Frustrated single mom

    Just needing prayer. Frustrated with myself and still not happy with this relationship with God thing. I just recently Graduated from a medical assistant program and will be working soon but now I’m realizing with work comes more bills and the thought of having to keep living from paycheck to...
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    Intrusive thoughts

    I’ve been doing so well but For the past couple of days, I’ve been having horrible intrusive thoughts. I’ve been praying a lot. It’s really frustrating and all I want to do is cry.
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    Hurt by someone I thought was my friend

    Title pretty much explains it but I was hurt terribly by someone recently and sadly, I have now realized I was being used. It hurts so badly because this was a person I considered to be a close friend. Pray that I let go of them and have peace and that this person stops hurting people. The way I...
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    The nice people on this forum

    I’m pretty sure a lot of you are familiar with my posts and prayer requests for my depression and the issues I’ve been through the past couple of years and just wanted to say thank you for the many of you that have shown me so much kindness and compassion even with my ranting sometimes...
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    Always depressed

    Not in a good spot right now. Maybe just need prayer for strength or a breakthrough. I’m not sure what I need anymore.
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    Suicidal thoughts

    I’ve been terribly depressed. Tonight, I can’t get any sleep. I’m almost convinced God hates me and prefers my sister and brother, hence why their lives are better than mine. I feel like I’m not worth anything and I deserve all the bad I’ve gone through. Why did He create me? Nothing is changing...
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    Depressed again

    Nothing new. Just needing prayer. Starting to feel like either my faith is useless or this is Gods plan for my life.
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    I wish God never created me

    Not in a good place mentally. I feel angry and like I’m going to explode. No matter how much I pray, I still feel like this.