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guy that took her car to the repair shop the car was now gone for 7 months you see a week before I left the bar seen I ran into him I thought I had his number but he got a new one at the time I thought it was to go out and party but God had other plans after that day at church that Friday I wanted to get something for her mom and step dad for Christmas since we did not have any money to get them anything and they got me and my dad a jacket I looked on line at Harley Davidson website and saw two jackets a mans and a women’s I said oh that would be perfect but I did not have the money to buy them. well then I felt to call him and ask about her car I did he said he would check the next day he said they had it and that it was fixed and running they never sold it, but here was the problem they wanted 1800 dollars for the car I did not have the money I was upset I asked God what to do then that Monday I felt to sell my car a 1996 aurora it had broken motor mounts the widows did not work right it had problems I put it up for 1800 dollars the car sold the next day for ya 1800 dollars I picked up her car the next day now when she picked her car as we were riding back to our house I looked at her and told her she would be my wife when I said that she just smiled and I got to see our beautiful son and I cried when her and my little man left you see I have had such a love put in my heart for them it hurt every time she spoke bad or did not even care about what I had done or in reality what god had given me to do all that had been done. I would cry on the floor or when we hung up on the phone because I would say I love you and she would say ok bye. I knew God was in control but I was not in control of my fleas I needed to grow so I could get myself in line with the will of God. I would get thoughts in my head that would say if you turn to God he will take your family it not his will for you. I was so scared that I started to believe those thoughts no knowing enough about God and how loving he is and faithful. We read in psalms 37:4 delight thyself in the lord and he will give you the desires on your heart I will talk about this further on. Then I also knew I would have no car to get to work but God had that taken care of I was given a van the day before she got her car and her car was not only fixed but it had everything in it the way she left it nothing was touch in 7 months it was never sold or touched not only that I went to the Harley shop and guess what they had one female and one male jacket that was like what I saw left I got them that is our God glory to God. Now just so you know I am still believing one day and crying two days later sometimes she would be sweet then she would be so cold to me I never really told her all the details of what was happening to the world her and our son were two to me they were the world After that I called her and told her I thought wow her mom got paid back her car was back I thought that would really move her heart but it did not she came down that Saturday to pick up the car I was able by the grace of god to get off work so I could see her we got back to our house and I checked the oil and I had to know something I had to ask if she ever asked Christ in her heart well she did at one point in her life that made me smile she gave me a big kiss good bye I was so happy and as soon as she did I heard a voice in my head say that would be the last time she would kiss you like that and that scared me( that is how the enemy works I carried that thought for a long time you will read about it later). So she left I cried but I pressed on in all this God was building my faith my trust in him but in all these miracles and him showing me his will that she is for me I still was in unbelief. .one day I wanted to send her a gift but I did not have much money well anyway I went to get my dad’s hair cut and mine I had forty five dollars well it only ended up being twenty for both so that left me 25 dollars so I went to Victoria secrets (not that I had enough to buy anything) well guess what they were having a sale that day on sleeper pants for twenty dollars so I had enough money how awesome was that and I asked if I could have the big box as well I went home and went to Wal-Mart and got my son 9 outfits I put them in the box the next day I went to Kroger I wanted to buy a rose and put it the box the lady said it will maybe last a day or 2 max well I got it as I walked out the door I put one hand under the rose and one hand on top of it and said God you gave this rose life it will have perfect life when she gets it, well I put it in the box and went and mailed it now I checked on it the next day and it did not get there I checked the next day and they said it was lost it has now been 3 days in the box I went the next day and they said they could not find the address so they were sending it back I was so hurt. The next day I got a call from her (it now had been in the box 5 days) she said she got everything I said what I had no idea what she was talking about since the post office told me It was coming back to me. When she told me it was my box I asked her immediately how the rose was she said it was perfect it looked beautiful she had no idea all that went on with it she sent me a picture the next day of the rose and it was in full bloom that is my God and his grace and love Well on 3/09/2009 my aunt called and told me she asked the lord to gave her a scripture for me it was job 36:11 if they listen and obey me they will be blessed with prosperity throughout there lives and all these years will be pleasant. she said notice they and theirs plural it was speaking of 2 not one meaning me and Carrie I was so happy you see I have been looking for more conformation to God’s will. No in all this she is still not back and was still not being nice sometimes she was mean in the natural it looked like nothing was happening but I believed God that all these things were not happening for any reason. I mean let’s look at what god has done to this point he saved me which was the most important delivered me from being a drunk gave me a job lead me to a church where not only did I praise him he gave me a sign when I was handed that program from the same lady that bought my bend you see if I had not gone to church that day or had I not gone back to my car for a coffee cup I would have never got those words handed to me it was in Gods perfect timing that lifted my heart he brought the people to buy my things that paid her mom every dime and got her car back even provided the way to get her parents there Christmas gift that is a loving and powerful god also everyone that did come to buy them turned out to be born again and they all prayed for me and lifted my spirits it really helped me to keep believing you see I lived far from anyone I knew but also when I turned my life over to Christ he separated me so I could start to learn and lean on him. One day I was at lunch and I opened my bible to proverbs 31 and saw where it said a wife of noble character I did not pay it too much attention but for some reason I took a Wendy’s napkin and booked marked it closed the bible and forgot about it that night I called my aunt we talked but I never mentioned proverbs 31 in fact like I said I forgot about it well like always she prayed for me at the end of our talks during her prayer she said I feel god wants you to prey proverbs 31 over Carrie I was amazed I turned to my bible to check if that was it and sure enough it was the one I booked marked with the napkin I told her what had happen that day it was God confirming his will for me as to believing for her to be my wife that we would be a family that my son will grow up with mommy and daddy. In all that God had done and shown me my faith was till like a wave rocking back and forth. I was standing firm that god would bring her back I would not move on that. One day I called my aunt and again we talked I know I was driving her crazy along with my other friend john who is also a born again you see it seemed that God removed each person one by one as I grew in faith it was like I was going from glory to glory God knew it but me no my heart deep down inside knew and always did know it has been my mind that I have been fighting with also I was talking to so many people my faith was a little in God and a lot in man that is why I believe they were taken from me God will bring things or people in your life for a short season to keep you on track as you grow in him. well my aunt I talked and pretty much we always talked about what was going on can you imagine that would drive people crazy well thank God he gave her endurance after we talked we prayed and during that prayer she smiled and felt maybe that we would have a little girl one day remember this I will finish in the latter part of the story you will see how loving God truly is. Well we lived in this house we rented and when we moved in we painted and started fixing up the house but I never finished it so there were cabinets un painted without doors and the house was not very clean well I started to want to clean and fix the house I got the carpet cleaned and some maids cleaned the house when they showed up to tell me how much I could not afford it so I asked them if I could give them two checks each that they could despot one that week and one the next week they agreed and I also had the yard done I thought for sure God was doing this and all the things I did not finish I finished the house looked great all this was done in one week by god’s grace well she came to visit me on Easter Friday I thought for sure when she saw all that was done not to mention how god has changed me and the love he has given me even in all the why she was walking on me I was still right there full of love you see my priorities were never right until I put god first in my life well she did not stay but I was able to show her so much love and we got to watch TV and hang out with our son but she also watched Joel Osteen which put little seeds of god in her heart she left the next day with our son and I cried I was so sad I got texts saying I miss you and she would think about coming back I was so happy It looked like I would maybe have her and my son and we would be together, but that was not the case she did not come back and after that I lost my job and things were going downhill fast I had felt to move to Memphis but I kept pushing it off then on Sunday the 26th of April I saw a message on Joel Osteen about stepping out into your divine destiny and next day I had such a burden to move I called her and told her I was moving there now she had gotten a job 3 weeks before I moved there and (which when I heard that I was hurt I asked God why but it must have been his plan) anyway so I started looking for an apartment I found that night an ad for one and it had a name of a girl name Jill I saved it well the next day I tried to call her all day I was about to give up as I was going to try one more time when she called me she told me I needed a cosigner and well god already had one it was a man that I had known since I moved to Mississippi who I thought would never do anything like that well he got me his information it was all coming together well she turned in our apt to the apartments they were having a no application fee special you see I was in Mississippi they were in Tennessee so I would have had to send money by mail for the application fee so when I saw we did not have to pay for the app fee and the name trinity lakes I thought for sure this was the one God was giving us well it was not we got turned down I was so sad upset started questioning if I was doing the right thing well I asked Jill what to do well Jill asked if I tried this one I said no but they want an app fee well she called them and asked if they would let me send her the money by wire and if so would they run the app well they said ok that was great accept it was 4:30 and they closed at six and I had no car you see when I lost my job I had to give the van back so for 2 months I walked back and forth everyday for food for my dad since he could not walk that far do to his condition well I had asked the neighbor earlier that day if he would take me the store he said no now it was 4:30 and I had to go to the store to wire the money so I had to ask again well I did this time he said yes ( I believe if he had said yes earlier he would have said no this time when I needed to go the most well I got it wired and got back home called Jill told her I sent it I told her don’t care where its located at this point we just need one you see I sold my refrigerator washer dyer tools all the things we did not need in an apartment it gave us all the money we would need to move also everything I sold was gone the same day so if we did not move we would be in trouble well God did not fail us she turned in the paper work to this one apartment and I called my aunt we prayed that day at