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I got saved when I was 8. Being pretty young, I didnt really think there was anything more to it than just saying that I was a christian... When I was 13, I rededicated my life to christ, and got filled with the Holy spirit. Well, about 6 months later I started backsliding again. It seems like everytime i got close to god, it just wore off... I'm almost 16 now. I'd always been told that God had his hand on me, so i didnt really worry much about it. I kinda figured that everthing would work out ok. I hadn't been able to sleep lately, I kept waking up in the middle of the night, or not getting to sleep till really late... it got annoying. lol. Saturday night, around 5 in the morning, i still hadn't been able to get to sleep. i realized that I was doing somethings that I shouldnt be doing and started praying. I decided that I wasnt just gonna pray and then stop, I was gonna pray until I felt something. About 15 minutes later, i just started crying. I prayed for about a hour and a half. lol. I've felt God's presence before, but that was always in church, and it had been a really long time since i've felt it that much. Sunday, it seemed like almost everything that the preacher said was something that I had prayed about. I normally pay attention in church, but usually I don't really conncect with anything. And, ever since then, I've had no problem getting to sleep. i think God was just trying to get my attention. Well, he's got it! lol. I've also had alot of ideas for songs lately. It seems like everything I do, God is showing me something, weather it's telling me that something I had been doing had been keeping me from getting closer to him, or even just understanding things that didnt really mean anything to me before, things are clicking now, and I can't seem to get enough! Anyway, i just wanted to say that God is awesome, and even when it seems like he's not there, he is. Even though I didnt feel like he could hear me, he never left me. I had walked away from him... The sad thing is, I didn't even realize that until now because it had been a slow process. I had stopped praying as much, and eventually, I completely quit reading my bible, didn't want to go to church, and found myself doing more and more things that I knew wasn't right. I got sick of it. As soon as I was ready to come back, he was right there waiting for me. And I'm not going back! lol. So, I just wanted to say, that God has changed me. So, in my cousin's words, "I'm saved, sanctified, and set free, not the same person that I used to be!" lol. What has god done in your life lately?
but yea, God is great, He's done so much!