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Hello, and thank you for taking the time to read my post. I think I've been under spiritual attack the last few weeks spiraling me into depressive, suicidal states and insecurity. One of the things I've come to hate is my voice and I feel embarrassment when I pray out loud to God (I used to kneel by my bed and talk). Lately, I simply pull out my writing pad application on my phone and write my prayers to God, without kneeling. I must confess, I have come to enjoy this method more, but I feel guilty that I'm too prideful to kneel before God and am being lukewarm. Is this method of prayer acceptable, or am I giving into what the attacks wanted? I never speak to God out loud anymore, only in my head and on my electronic note pad, without ever kneeling. I want to continue this. Is this enough?