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How have things changed for you over the course of your life. Here's how its gone for me. I had a great childhood and two good parents. The teenage years were a blast! I had a really beautiful girlfriend. That relationship lasted for eight years. The party continued on into my twenties, I became a "bad-boy." I had many, many girlfriends and I partyed all the time. The transition from high school into my twenties was difficult. I didn't want to grow up. My twenties was like a rollercoaster, I didn't like change. I was constantly drinking and getting high. I couldn't see myself being a father or a husband. In my early thirties I began to wake up a little bit.I looked around at all of the people that I hung around that were older than me and I didn't see anyone that I wanted to be like. I made a change. But I only changed venues. And continued to party. I got married in my mid-thirties to a really nice girl. I was never faithful to her. We had a son when I was thirty-eight. Having him made me want to be a better person. It came a little too late for my marriage. I was divorced at forty-three. Since then I've had two short lived relationships. Its been six years since I've been in a real relationship with someone. I've battled depession, lonliness and alcoholism. I've overcome the alcohol. The depression comes and goes. The lonliness is everyday. After I got divorced I never cheated on a woman again. God blessed me with a great son and I am a great father. One of the few things that I didn't mess up. I see clearly now and I know what God expects of me and I strive to do those things. I have a good relationsip with my sons mother now. We do well at co-parenting. I lost my job back in March and I'm not working right now. God blessed me with some money so I'm okay in that department for awhile. I have no idea what the future holds for me. I'll turn fifty years old next week. I'll just see what happens from here. It all seems like it was just yesterday when all these things were happening after a certain age it seems like time flies. If you would like to, share about the changes in your life.
