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Hi everyone, this is my second post and I'm doing some soul searching with my life. I have decided that I need to be closer to Christ, how am I going to do this? I do not know yet, but in my search I have come face to face with some harsh realities.
I have been married twice. I left my 2nd husband about a year ago, we just fought to much and it was to much of a headache for me, but we have stayed faithful to each other, and we do talk everyday we just do not live together anymore. Last night I started reading some scriptures about marriage, and it made me think....
Maybe I do not take marriage seriously, its easier to just walk out, my parents divorced, and out of 7 children only 1 has not divorced. I have no friends that are still on their first marriage, a couple are thinking about ending their third.
Maybe I don't know how to be a wife, maybe I do not know what real commitment is, my husband who was brought up Catholic says he will not agree to a divorce, and will fight me on it because in his mind marriage is for life, he did not abuse me, we did not have affairs, he provided for us, I guess when it comes down to it when things get tough I bail.
I guess what I am trying to say here is ....
When your marriage is spinning out of control how do you keep yourself from walking out the door?
Why is it some people know how to be married and others dont?
Maybe that's whats wrong with us, not putting myself down here but to be honest ....I do not know how to be a wife or how to be married.
Thanks for letting me babble
I have been married twice. I left my 2nd husband about a year ago, we just fought to much and it was to much of a headache for me, but we have stayed faithful to each other, and we do talk everyday we just do not live together anymore. Last night I started reading some scriptures about marriage, and it made me think....
Maybe I do not take marriage seriously, its easier to just walk out, my parents divorced, and out of 7 children only 1 has not divorced. I have no friends that are still on their first marriage, a couple are thinking about ending their third.
Maybe I don't know how to be a wife, maybe I do not know what real commitment is, my husband who was brought up Catholic says he will not agree to a divorce, and will fight me on it because in his mind marriage is for life, he did not abuse me, we did not have affairs, he provided for us, I guess when it comes down to it when things get tough I bail.
I guess what I am trying to say here is ....
When your marriage is spinning out of control how do you keep yourself from walking out the door?
Why is it some people know how to be married and others dont?
Maybe that's whats wrong with us, not putting myself down here but to be honest ....I do not know how to be a wife or how to be married.
Thanks for letting me babble