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Please don't think that I don't believe you have the best of intentions but this will not work. If saying you don't have the condition works then you were not correctly diagnosed in the first place. I don't like the idea of demanding Satan pay you back because we shouldn't talk to Satan and nothing good comes from him. If he's taken something from me, he can keep it because God's going to give me something better. Remember that Paul prayed for God to heal him from his thorn in his side and He never did. Was it because Paul's faith not strong enough? Was it because he didn't declare himself healed from it? Did God want to heal Paul but He couldn't because he wasn't beginning his days denying that he was suffering from this problem?
See, I found it frustrating when God wouldn't answer my prayers. I was told by Christians that this wasn't what God wanted for me and if only I'd pray more and have more faith then God would answer my prayer. Well, eventually I figured out that God doesn't want me to spend every waking moment praying that I'll suffer less and be happier. God wants more to me than that. There where other things He was putting on my heart to do and pray for, should I have neglected them in order to pray for myself more? How would God respond if I never prayed that He'd end my own suffering because I was too busy praying over the suffering of others? Should I pray over my own anxiety disorder rather than for the 250 000 children in South Africa who are infected with HIV? If I never pray for myself beyond that which is in the Lord's Prayer but continually pray prayers of praise and thanksgiving and pray that God will use me and make me into what He wants me to be and pray for the needs of others, how God respond? Will that mean that I experience more suffering than those who continually and exclusively pray for their own comfort? Well if that's the case than so be it, because like I said before, God's ways are not our ways.
See, I found it frustrating when God wouldn't answer my prayers. I was told by Christians that this wasn't what God wanted for me and if only I'd pray more and have more faith then God would answer my prayer. Well, eventually I figured out that God doesn't want me to spend every waking moment praying that I'll suffer less and be happier. God wants more to me than that. There where other things He was putting on my heart to do and pray for, should I have neglected them in order to pray for myself more? How would God respond if I never prayed that He'd end my own suffering because I was too busy praying over the suffering of others? Should I pray over my own anxiety disorder rather than for the 250 000 children in South Africa who are infected with HIV? If I never pray for myself beyond that which is in the Lord's Prayer but continually pray prayers of praise and thanksgiving and pray that God will use me and make me into what He wants me to be and pray for the needs of others, how God respond? Will that mean that I experience more suffering than those who continually and exclusively pray for their own comfort? Well if that's the case than so be it, because like I said before, God's ways are not our ways.
