I've said a prayer for you young man. you have a leg up to many others your age who suffer from depression, you have your faith in God! Lean on him when times are low & when they arent low! I truly hope that your depression eases with your fear. Dont assume the worst about your condition, ok... just take it one step at a time with future thoughts being only positive and receive your strength in Christ Jesus who is risen for you, his precious child who he loves. Spiritual Blessings to you as you endure the trials of your life and celebrate the good times. You are in the UK? if so I think that they have excellent medical system there where even if there is problems for you, you dont have to worry about the financial burdon. Correct me if i'm wrong on this. If this is truth receive this as the blessing that it is. If not, let us know and we'll also pray about your finances. Take care of yourself in every way you possibly can to the betterment of your mental and physical health, ok. Marcia.