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This is the first time I've ever done this sort of thing, because I need HELP I would appreciate feedback from other women who have been in the same circumstances as me.
I have been raised a christian, was married to a christian man for 16 years, however (after 2 failed attempts), have separated - will be getting divorced. The separation was all amicable, we just weren't meant to be together & both accepted that fact. We have been separated for over a year now.
Life gave me a strange twist in that I ended up falling in love with my female friend & was with her for 3 months, in secrecy. She is gay & married. At the time, we were both in the same situation - our needs weren't being met & we found what we needed in each other, both emotionally & physically.
This woman made me feel on top of the world & made me feel special, like no-one had ever done before. What started out as a friendship, became more serious. However, we both knew that it was wrong & had to stop, so the affair ended.
We somehow have managed to stay friends, however whilst she has gotten back on with her normal life, I am struggling badly, enough that I had to go onto anti-depressants. All along I knew this was wrong, even though I haven't attended church for sometime, however lust is a powerful thing.
I do not know where to begin to get my life right again. I feel so much guilt & shame, that I wonder if God will ever forgive me. My life is a mess, riddled with confusion, depression & worthlessness.
I have been raised a christian, was married to a christian man for 16 years, however (after 2 failed attempts), have separated - will be getting divorced. The separation was all amicable, we just weren't meant to be together & both accepted that fact. We have been separated for over a year now.
Life gave me a strange twist in that I ended up falling in love with my female friend & was with her for 3 months, in secrecy. She is gay & married. At the time, we were both in the same situation - our needs weren't being met & we found what we needed in each other, both emotionally & physically.
This woman made me feel on top of the world & made me feel special, like no-one had ever done before. What started out as a friendship, became more serious. However, we both knew that it was wrong & had to stop, so the affair ended.
We somehow have managed to stay friends, however whilst she has gotten back on with her normal life, I am struggling badly, enough that I had to go onto anti-depressants. All along I knew this was wrong, even though I haven't attended church for sometime, however lust is a powerful thing.
I do not know where to begin to get my life right again. I feel so much guilt & shame, that I wonder if God will ever forgive me. My life is a mess, riddled with confusion, depression & worthlessness.