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Here's the deal: If you're not familiar with the record label Come&Live!, they do a thing called Fast Friday where people send in prayer requests, and anyone who signs up for the e-mail list fasts and prays on Fridays. When I first heard about Fast Friday, I immediately felt called to participate. I was lacking self discipline in other areas of my life, and I had never tried fasting, so I starting fasting every Friday with an eagerness to grow my spirituality and relationship with God. Soon, however, I began to eat larger and larger meals to break my fast. It got to the point where it was simply gluttonous. I was still fasting, but the fast became merely a justification for the overeating. Some Fridays I wouldn't even pray (which is the whole point!), and I'd maybe think about God for a total of a minute throughout the day. And to top it off, I became proud that I was able to demonstrate so much discipline. I ultimately realized that there really was no discipline in it at all. I was denying myself food, but only because there was a massive reward waiting for me at the end (that had nothing to do with God). So I'm wondering whether I should stop fasting or not. I'm fasting for all the wrong reasons, so half of me thinks I should stop because I'm not doing myself any good. The other half thinks that stopping would just be quitting. And I'm not sure what there is anything to gain from stopping my fasts. If I keep fasting, I will try to tone down the overeating, but I doubt that will be enough to get my heart in the right place. What do you think?