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I have almost been single for a year, and I can still not move on. This I feel is due to the fact that before my relationship with this girl started I have been single and been praying for my wife for and for God to keep her safe until the time is right and we meet. Well He did and I got his gril and things we were together for 3.5 years, but always had problems with her allowing other people in and then they came between us. And after I had given up trying to get her to see my point we broke up. I had felt I had to let her find things out for herself. Well to cut things short, the same evening we broke up a guy was allready starting things, and not very long after they were together. I had prayed for God to release my feelings for her but nothing happened for weeks. I had then asked Him what He wanted to show me. He said that often we ask but He cannot answer, as we don't give Him the option, we have preset ideas, A or be, but Gods answer is C, thus we don't find answers till we open our thoughts and hearts for Him. Well I believed for months that things ill change, she will comeback. I still haven't been with another girl although oppertunities have come, because I felt that God had told me that this was my wife, and although we weren't married I had been told by God we are thus by just looking at other girl I woould be cheating on my "wife". God had also told me that as I knew she was my wife I was going through the same emotions and effects as someone going through divorce and that what was coming was to see my wife marry someone else.
I tried speaking to her but she is unapproachable. She has also taken away all my friends, and oppertunities to do ministry in church. She told everyone she cares and I was the problem. I haven't contacted her in 4 months, nothing has changed. She still goes by living without conseqeunce. Taking away the most important thing in my life, God and serving Him.
I cannot see anyway of her not knowing this, as she was the only one that I have ever opened my complete heart to, she knows my dreams of worshipping God with music an ministry. Yet I am imprisoned by her doing.
I have no motivations left, my dreams are of serving God, and the only reason I am studying was because He told me that I am going to need it to do my work for Him. Yet I receive no motivation.
My heart still gets broken everytime I hear about her and her new working, 7 years senior BF, and get told that I am wrong thats why she can do what she wants in church, this is what my parents say when I get so angry when my mom comes back from hers after a visits and tells me how great she is, happy etc.
God had given me lots of dreams of ministries, what a great testiomny its going to be when He brings her back to me, and also gave me a date. That is sson to pass.
Am I just making up this voice in my head. He has given me many scriptures when this strated and He told me wat was going to happen it was romans 4:13 onwards. Then last week Heb 11.
Am I never going to be working for God. Was this whole thing with my ex me, the voices etc. Please help, guidance, prayers. I don't want to be rich I just want to live for God, with His people, thats my dreams and ambitions. I feel lost help!!
I tried speaking to her but she is unapproachable. She has also taken away all my friends, and oppertunities to do ministry in church. She told everyone she cares and I was the problem. I haven't contacted her in 4 months, nothing has changed. She still goes by living without conseqeunce. Taking away the most important thing in my life, God and serving Him.
I cannot see anyway of her not knowing this, as she was the only one that I have ever opened my complete heart to, she knows my dreams of worshipping God with music an ministry. Yet I am imprisoned by her doing.
I have no motivations left, my dreams are of serving God, and the only reason I am studying was because He told me that I am going to need it to do my work for Him. Yet I receive no motivation.
My heart still gets broken everytime I hear about her and her new working, 7 years senior BF, and get told that I am wrong thats why she can do what she wants in church, this is what my parents say when I get so angry when my mom comes back from hers after a visits and tells me how great she is, happy etc.
God had given me lots of dreams of ministries, what a great testiomny its going to be when He brings her back to me, and also gave me a date. That is sson to pass.
Am I just making up this voice in my head. He has given me many scriptures when this strated and He told me wat was going to happen it was romans 4:13 onwards. Then last week Heb 11.
Am I never going to be working for God. Was this whole thing with my ex me, the voices etc. Please help, guidance, prayers. I don't want to be rich I just want to live for God, with His people, thats my dreams and ambitions. I feel lost help!!