Okay,I am new to this. I am really just reaching out for human interaction along with spiritual guidance. I married a man who is not a practicing Christian. I married him for fleshly reasons. He is not a mean man. He is helpful around the house. He is not physically or verbally abusive. He is mildly affectionate. This might seem like the dumbest comment on line but here goes...we do not talk in a way that expresses our individual thoughts or perspectives on anything. He may intitiate conversation about the weather, paying bills, what he wants for dinner, lets go to the gym. There is literally no other conversation about anything else. He is not emotionally, sexually, spiritually, intellectually, available to me. There is literally no intimacy on any of those levels. He is taking medication for psychosis, which came about after we were dating for 3 years. This is my 3rd marriage. I know that I made a terrible mistake marrying him. I found out about the psychosis and a few other things I did not know about him before we got married, but I did not have the heart to break up with him when he was with out a job and no medical insurance and no one to help him. I literally thought if I got him help, and when he got better and realized he didn't want to be together, I would just divorce him. But deep down inside, I wanted to be married and wanted it to be a good relationship between us. Now I am so lonely on all those above levels. I don't want to divorce again. I have made mistakes with marriage all my life. Started from childhood, and not having a healthy relationship with my father. I am praying and asking God to please help me find a way with in the marriage to have some quality of life while married to him, in light of the fact that I realize I am the one who made the mistake. I want to make that clear because I know people may think I made my bed now I must lie in it. But at 55, I may still have one or two decades of life left.....any suggestions on how to live that life not watching the clock just tick away, while I feel every second of misery?