I have posted on here before about struggling with the same sin repeatedly, and for a while it had gotten better. Now I'm doing it again and again and again and every single time, I do it, feel ashamed, repent, then turn around and do it again. I know it's Satan influencing me, making me do it, helping me justify it. Then the Holy Spirit is coming into me and saying "This is wrong you shouldn't be doing it." Then the whole process starts all over again. I'm starting to feel trapped and the thing that most scares me is I may get to that point where I do it and I DON'T feel that feeling of "This is wrong you shouldn't be doing it."
Hi Samual,
Praise God that you want to choose to walk righteously before God and no longer repeating your sins. I am not sure what you are suffering from but I can empathise with you as once a upon a time, I have been falling into the same sins over and over again. Each time I fall into that dark hole, it seems deeper and darker; making it harder to climb out. I can share with you how I work on myself.
I start off by praying to confess all the sins I've committed against God and ask Him for forgiveness. I then, surrender myself to God and ask for the Holy Spirit to guide me and lead me each day. I will then, read a chapter of the scripture a day - continuous from the previous chapter in the previous day.
I will start to look into my life to see when I will feel the urge to commit the sin. If it's because I have some extra time and that's when I commit the sin, I read the Psalms and do a paraphrase on the Psalm (one each day) to voice up my pain to God. As I go along, it helps me to build my relationship with God and slowly, I walk away from the sin. However, at times, the temptation do come back, when I realise I'm sinning again, I will pray to ask God to remove the thoughts from my mind.