I'm sorry you are feeling this way. But know, you are NOT alone! Whatever mental or physical pain you are going through, first God is there!
"8 If I were to ascend to heaven, you would be there.
If I were to sprawl out in Sheol, there you would be." Psalm 139:8
Second, there are many people here who have thought about suicide or have tried to kill themselves. We may not suffer from the same problems/issues you do, but we do understand the desperation and loneliness that can drive these thoughts.
Third, mental illness can also be part of the urge to commit suicide. Regardless of the nonsense you hear about demons, mental illness can cause black thoughts, and these can often be relieved with meds and good counseling. Further, a good church community can be supportive and essential in recovering from this kind of deep depression.
I work with the mentally ill. I would be happy to speak with you about your issues. I am also a pastor, it would be confidential, and I do have experience with on-line counseling. I hope we can connect.
God does love you! We should go to heaven when HE is ready to take us, not when we make the decision. If you are in physical pain or suffering, so am I. We can talk about that, too!
"8 If I were to ascend to heaven, you would be there.
If I were to sprawl out in Sheol, there you would be." Psalm 139:8
Second, there are many people here who have thought about suicide or have tried to kill themselves. We may not suffer from the same problems/issues you do, but we do understand the desperation and loneliness that can drive these thoughts.
Third, mental illness can also be part of the urge to commit suicide. Regardless of the nonsense you hear about demons, mental illness can cause black thoughts, and these can often be relieved with meds and good counseling. Further, a good church community can be supportive and essential in recovering from this kind of deep depression.
I work with the mentally ill. I would be happy to speak with you about your issues. I am also a pastor, it would be confidential, and I do have experience with on-line counseling. I hope we can connect.
God does love you! We should go to heaven when HE is ready to take us, not when we make the decision. If you are in physical pain or suffering, so am I. We can talk about that, too!