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Malcyboy

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Ever just feel so deflated and down in the gutters? I just feel that lately I don't know anything! I read the word, concerning things i have been taught in church and i find loopholes and contradictions, not that the word is contradictory but that the teaching i received contradicts the word...so now when I look at the image of the temple i am meant to be, i see a poorly built house, that has Christ as the foundation, yet everything else is a wreck, I feel like, what do I know anymore? Am i really saved? i believe in God, i believe He sent His son Jesus Christ to die for me and I believe he rose again and ascended to be with the Father and soon, He will return for His bride...

But I am even beginning to doubt my salvation, because there are times i go days without even praying or reading, i always seem to have this inner reminder, oh you haven't sought out God today and i feel that sometimes i am only doing it to tick a "religious checklist" i truly want a life of service and devotion to God and I wanna love Him with all i am but I just feel nothing I do is right, I feel like I can't even love Him right, I feel like my prayers are jumbled and messed up and half the time I forget what i have prayed about....

I truly feel so lost and disheartened cause I want more of God and i wanna know with full assurance that I will spend eternity with Him yet I feel so disconnected to Him and when I listen to pastors, all I hear is "you should feel His presence!" and "You need to be baptised in the Holy Spirit and speak in tongues!" amongst other things...and I am like I dont feel this apparent physical presence, some laid hands on me and prayed for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit, but i have never had a crazy moment where i have burst into speaking tongues or felt anything when they prayed for it....

What am I to do? I cannot keep living everyday fearing I might just not be saved and that I am some pathetic wannabe Christian who can't even love and seek God right...Please if anyone can help, please do cause I truly am at my tethers end :(
 
breno785au

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I used to feel the same way, I was so insecure in my faith until it dawned on me that God responds to faith. Spiritual experiences have nothing to do with it. If you felt Gods presence all the time then where is the room for faith? I have had profound moments of feeling His presence but its not about feeling it all the time but being sure of Him. I used to see manifestations of the Spirit and wonder why those things didnt happen to me and it made me question my salvation or why doesnt God do that to me but ive learnt to seek Him and not manifestations. PM me whenever you feel you want to talk. Id love to continually encourage you.
 
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danalee

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You are loved, and we all feel confused and scared. No one ever feels secure all the time. Take care of you and know that this too will pass. It's good to take a break every once in a while from the hype - down time, it's a good thing.
 
mystdancer50

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I hear you. I've been there. :)

So, you're on the right track, actually. To be able to discern the teachings aligning or not aligning with the word of God is a huge thing that many choose not to do or fail to do as they walk the Christian path. This doesn't mean you're failing, it means that Holy Spirit is calling you to delve deeper into the Word, to study it on your own along with the church fellowship and to find the treasures hidden within. What a blessing!

We are all wrecked, badly built houses on solid foundations of Christ. Then, He begins to tear down the walls and rebuild. We have to let Him. Sometimes it's easy and painless...other times, not so much. But, willingness is the major issue. Having a teachable and yielding heart to Holy Spirit is key to being rebuilt into the image of Christ, which all true followers desire.

Fear is the tool of satan. He will bring doubt and fear into your life. Jesus isn't standing over you with a clipboard saying, "Well, you didn't pray today. Shame on you." Now, yes, prayer and study are vital and should be consistent in your life, but we all have seasons, seasons of weariness, and those are the seasons when you need to press in and pray and read regardless of how you 'feel'. (Are you listening, Julie? - Yes, Lord! This word is for me, too!)

What matters is that you are doing your best to seek and live for Christ daily (read Romans 12, it is helpful) and that you are daily laying down your sins/flesh before Christ and seeking His will over your own. Grace...this is when grace matters most...when we don't 'feel' saved...grace abounds for those that love and are the Lord's.
 
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Malcyboy

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Thank you everyone for the encouragement, i just sometimes feel like I think I know so much, yet when i start reading the bible and looking at commentaries etc, i begin to realise how little i do know and how far i am from perfect...which i guess is a good place, at least i know i cant manage it myself and need God...just I feel like such a failure and feel like God is disappointed in me and the very thought of that makes me almost burst into tears...all I ever dream about is hearing God saying to me "Well done thy good and faithful servant" I wanna know that God loves me and is proud of me cause all i ever feel like is a failure and a disappointment....vain? perhaps? soulish? perhaps more so....but all i want is to know God, my Father in Heaven is proud of me and isn't ashamed of me..
 
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we all have times in our lives when we feel we have let God down, and why would he care about a foolish soul such as me. Who am I but a big failure, so many others seem to have a 'spiritual' relationship while I struggle in the flesh. DON'T LOSE HOPE !! You are seeking after GOD, you feel unworthy GOOD, now God can use you.
Cling to Jesus Christ , never let go of him, He is your friend, he loves you more than you can ever comprehend. Do not seek outward signs of your faith, but seek God in your soul, He is in you, the Holy Spirit abides in you, he will never leave you or forsake you. You are looking for outward signs and He wants to be one with your soul. Ask God to reveal himself in your inner being He is there right now, He will never abandon you, you are his. He understands, he knows this world is a horrible place, but know that he has overcome this world and has made you a member of his kingdom, nothing can separate you from him, He will not allow it. He is God Almighty and he has chosen you as one of his own, nothing can take you away from him.
Ask him to reveal himself to your soul, he is ready to assure you.

Christ be with you always.
 
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Fishbait

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Oh the many times I've been where you're at. Just look at my age. When you said, "i believe in God, i believe He sent His son Jesus Christ to die for me and I believe he rose again and ascended to be with the Father and soon, He will return for His bride..." that's all you need to do. You're saved! Jesus will come into your life. And always remember what Jesus told us, "If I be for you who can be against you?"
 
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parablepete

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MALCYBOY....You are going to be fine. Your heart is in the right place. I am more concerned about the stress you are putting on yourself. You are ONLY 21 I am 66 I still have the problems that you do. However, I know that threw the Blood of Christ my sins are forgiven. As long as I keep in the light. You are such a fine young man to come her and ask for help.

Anything I can do PM me. You are loved here and we want the best for you. every day is an important time in your life. Live it to the fullest. Be a good person, help other, study your bible when you can, Get good Sleep, Be the first one to say hi!, be truthful, Honest, Hard work will be noticed. I wish you were my son!
 
TheAristocat

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Malcyboy said:
I truly feel so lost and disheartened cause I want more of God and i wanna know with full assurance that I will spend eternity with Him yet I feel so disconnected to Him and when I listen to pastors, all I hear is "you should feel His presence!" and "You need to be baptised in the Holy Spirit and speak in tongues!" amongst other things...and I am like I dont feel this apparent physical presence, some laid hands on me and prayed for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit, but i have never had a crazy moment where i have burst into speaking tongues or felt anything when they prayed for it....
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Eh. I know some denominations believe every Christian should speak in tongues, but I don't believe the Bible teaches that. The Bible teaches us that everyone in the Kingdom of God has different gifts. Some are as seemingly mundane as teachers, but teachers are still one of God's powerful tools to bring people back to God. Teachers can reveal to others Christ in the Old Testament, what the festivals and prophecies mean, etc. And knowledge is power. We should consider how powerful the tools are that God has given us rather than whether or not they're supernatural. I mean, look at the entire history of the Bible. How many prophets have come and gone in all these thousands of years? Not a whole lot. It just seems like a lot because we have a bunch of their records all in one collection. So don't expect to receive a supernatural experience in this world, but if you are obeying God you can expect him to give you certain tools that will further the Kingdom.
 
TheAristocat

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And, yes, I have gone through struggles like this in my life. It was usually a combination of things, involving being more interested with things in this world than in spending time with God and not receiving encouragement and answers from fellow believers whenever I chose to seek them out.
 
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TheAristocat said:
And, yes, I have gone through struggles like this in my life. It was usually a combination of things, involving being more interested with things in this world than in spending time with God and not receiving encouragement and answers from fellow believers whenever I chose to seek them out.
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Jesus he love you, and his love is far better than anybody's, it lasts for ever more.
 
pickles

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Dont be discouraged, I think many are feeling this way lately.
The theif loves to bring one doubt about their faith.
Just know God loves you without you being perfect, that is why He gave us Jesus, to perfect us in Him.
What you have described is what I often call many waters.
And scripture says I will bring you though the waters, thay shall not overtake you, with my right hand I will guide you. :)
Just keep holding on in the faith , hope and love we are called to, for trully these are the three things that last.

God bless
pickles

For we cannot hold the mind of God, It is He who holds us, providing what we need with each step we take. :)
 
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