I understand how you feel, but the BIble do not support your way of thinking at all. You say jewish tradition, lets not get that confuse with those who think they are jews and are not. Paul said in 1Corinthians 6: 19What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? 20For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's. Paul is saying you do not belong to yourself, and when you start thinking you do, then you have made another choice...only two choices to choose from. James says 1: 22 But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves.
23 For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his natural face in a glass.
23 For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his natural face in a glass.