But why did he choose me? I have wondered this for a long time considering how richly he has influenced and been in contact with me I have met Jesus twice I have met father twice I have met an angel I have been to the spiritual realm I have been shown countless rapture dreams I have been shown more dreams about the near future than I can count I have had many supernatural experiences and he has been so generous in speaking to me. Most of all of this very few ppl ever receive or at least in the amount he has given me I just cannot for the life of me understand why he chose me to do and show all of this. I am not special I am not pure and I am not deserving at all I have literally done nothing to deserve any of this.
If I ever get the chance to speak with him again I have to know the answer to this
I think that is so lovely that you don't know why He chose you. Me neither, it was all a bit of a surprise except I just got born again and just believed what He said, simple. I remember standing in a meeting once and saying "whatever it takes Lord", like I have never felt I am not allowed to speak that way with Him or because of being a woman I am not allowed to minister in certain ways...I know He is right there with me when I am good when I am bad or when I am totally stupid...just a little breath away and ready to respond personally and powerfully. That is so awesome eh.
Blain also I discovered He has a wonderful sense of humour. Once years ago I had gone through a very religious phase in a heavy leadership church who believed that all alcohol was evil, and that women should never wear trousers etc or men have long hair lol. We had a visitor at home who brought a bottle of wine with him which we didn't open but I put it in the fridge. A few days later I thought I might fancy a drop and I didn't feel like the Lord was saying nooooooooooo you can't. And I really really didn't feel like He was saying remember what your pastor told you...and in the end I felt free enough to open the bottle and try this wine.
Well Blain it was the most disgusting stuff I had ever tasted in my LIFE, I mean really.
I shot the whole lot immediately down the sink...and then I thought....that was really funny. I sat on the floor of my kitchen and laughed until I cried. The Lord knew exactly what was in that bottle and how foul it was...and He knew that we would share a joke about it when I tasted it and found out for myself. I love that. That to me is real intimacy when you can share a humorous experience which reveals so much about Him and about yourself.
Regarding dreams/visions I have been in a really bad situation here that I couldn't share, which amounted to being lied to and deceived really badly over a long period. I have regularly at certain points received visions and dreams to show me the truth as opposed to the lie that was told me, in such a striking way that I was able to challenge the person and get an admission. I would rather have a bad truth than a cosy lie any day.
Lovely talking with you. I am off to bed but will be back tomorrow.
Blessings, Con.