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Before I start, my intention is not embarrass or accuse, just in case it might be interpreted that way, but to give advice that I feel may help you, because I care
I'm not saying that you haven't already, but have you communicated to God that you want to forgive your parents? Have you asked Him for the strength to do so?
Unforgiveness in your heart doesn't affect your parents nearly as much as it affects you. It actually imprisons you in bitterness, anxiety, and anger to the point where it begins to dictate for you, how you live life. From what you have said, it doesn't seem like your unforgiveness is affecting your parents at all and as you said ,"They don't really care about my forgiveness." So by holding on to your unforgiveness you are not punishing them in any way because it doesn't affect them at all. The only person you are punishing by holding onto unforgiveness is yourself. Your unforgiveness will build walls around yourself that keep other people out of your life that God wants to put in your life. It will affect your ability to receive beneficial parental figures in your life because, before they even approach you, all of your walls that you are holding on to will go up.
It is really hard for people who have gone through horrible traumatic experiences from their parents. I recently heard a girl at church share how she had been molested by her parents growing up and how it seemed so hard for her to forgive them. She eventually chose to forgive, and asked God to come in and change her heart towards them. I'm not even pretending to say I can relate to you, I know it is really difficult, and I will be praying for you
God Bless,
Machew
I'm not saying that you haven't already, but have you communicated to God that you want to forgive your parents? Have you asked Him for the strength to do so?
Unforgiveness in your heart doesn't affect your parents nearly as much as it affects you. It actually imprisons you in bitterness, anxiety, and anger to the point where it begins to dictate for you, how you live life. From what you have said, it doesn't seem like your unforgiveness is affecting your parents at all and as you said ,"They don't really care about my forgiveness." So by holding on to your unforgiveness you are not punishing them in any way because it doesn't affect them at all. The only person you are punishing by holding onto unforgiveness is yourself. Your unforgiveness will build walls around yourself that keep other people out of your life that God wants to put in your life. It will affect your ability to receive beneficial parental figures in your life because, before they even approach you, all of your walls that you are holding on to will go up.
It is really hard for people who have gone through horrible traumatic experiences from their parents. I recently heard a girl at church share how she had been molested by her parents growing up and how it seemed so hard for her to forgive them. She eventually chose to forgive, and asked God to come in and change her heart towards them. I'm not even pretending to say I can relate to you, I know it is really difficult, and I will be praying for you
God Bless,
Machew