I tried suicide 2 times. God knows how much pain we were in just like you said. God is a forgiving God. People have been lied to for so long they believe the lies. Thats why we have so many churches teaching falsehoods. I'm sure you asked God to forgive you and you are forgiven. God loves you very much and would never hold it agaisnt you that you were hurting so much. If the person has been saved and did kill themself they are going right straight to God for him to love them. The unforgivable sin is to reject Jesus to the day you die. Or if one is saved and they keep doing evil things and don't repent. Means they were never Gods children in the first place. A person can be saved but God was never taught to them good and they go on doing evil things for years and years but one day they realize they are doing wrong and they repent and stop and go on and try their best to be good. God loves all the same even when we are lost in sin not knowing him good enough yet.