Do you really think its that simple? I suffered for years from mental illness, I was depressed, stressed and hurting. The news upset me, the evil world broke my heart. I had a hard time in school, sometimes I blamed my problems on God. I come from a good, loving Christian family. I have been a Christian pratically all my life. I graduated from school, mental problems grew worse. I some of the medicine I have to take has strange affects. I go nuts. I tried going to church, reading my Bible, praying. It does help.
I became shocked by the violence, bloodthirstiness, cruelty, harshness, God comes across as harsh in the old testament. But I love Psalms, Proverbs and new testament. It hurt to read that, I became afraid and angry with God, I asked 'how could you?"
I got involved with fantasy novels and games, I wanted to write Christian fantasy stories. I like mythical characters like dragons, unicorns, and fairies. I had a Christian dragon character, she was a jewel dragon named Seraphina Starfire.
I discovered the hypocrisy of the southern baptist church I was rasied in. My parents became disillusioned, they discovered the hypocrisy and bigotry of the baptists. We stopped going to baptist churches.
When I got really bad off, I was in a mental hospital, and I had a nightmare where I blashpemed and cursed at God. It was scary. I have had a bunch of weird dreams, a lot of them are scary nightmares. I realized only Jesus Christ can heal me of my problems. It was His love that gave me the strength to survive.
God forgives. He taught me what love is in 1 Cor. 13. My parents love me. I went to a Methodist church today. I will show the same mercy and love the Lord showed me to everyone else.