I see myself as clean yes, but only because of him. That is why i can run into his arms unafraid and no guilt, i admit i mess up but my love for him and his love for me is too great to tear apart.
You will not lose your salvation, that's for sure, nor will He ever leave you because even if a believer engage in dead works that deny Him, He that is faith abideth for He cannot deny Himself, ( 2 Timothy 2:10-14) but there are plenty of warnings given to believers to depart from iniquity to avoid becoming that vessel unto dishonour in His House and to remain as that chosen vessle unto honour in His House ( 2 Timothy 2:18-22 ) to attend the Marriage Supper.
And yes perhaps i did speak of myself when i said i see myself as clean, am i not allowed to talk about myself?
Yes: John 5:31 & John 7:18 & the proper way to witness is as John the Baptist did in John 3:28-30 in seeking His glory.
A false witness can defile a man, FYI Matthew 15:7-11, 18-20 Look those verses up out of your love for Him and be warned.
So if you say anything about yourself that would lead believers to pat you on the back, then that is not really testifying of Him in giving Him the "credit" nor the glory. If you testify of what you cannot do so that others that hear of your faith in Jesus Christ for what He is doing in your life, then those that hear may apply that faith in Him for their lives too.
This does not waver the fact that this is bigger than you and me, And i am under no bondage either.
Any believer that speaks of a promise to God and to man is in bondage to finish it and not leave it undone. By making too grand a promise that it can never really be finished and be easily broken, there is the knowledge of sin. To use God's grace to keep trying to keep that promise and yet call oneself a promise keeper, is a false witness because in reality, and in the eyes of God and man, that is a believer living in sin as a promise breaker.
I believe that not only did god put these desires in my heart but i believe as i said these things to him it was him speaking through me. Him telling me what i am going to do for him and his children, And him telling me just how deep our relationship is going to go, if not deeper.
May God help you to see this truth: Him telling you what He will have you do is His word to you, thus not needing any promises from you to make it happen. You believe Him at His Word, then do so without making promises as if He needs your help to keep His Word to you. Show that faith & belief in Him & His Word to you so that others may see your faith in Him & His Word to you instead of what you had promised to Him what He had already said He will do to you first.
An example of His Word to us: If you had told your little son that you will take him to a big city to watch a professional baseball game in an auditorium with you with all expenses paid for, how would you feel when he turns around and promised you that he will do it when he is not even old enough to drive or has any money to be able to do it?
Since we recognize what is beyond our ability to do: to save ourselves... to follow Him... to serve Him... then when we apply that faith in the Son of God to do this: having saved us... then if we need not make promises to save ourselves, the neither do we need to make promises to follow Him nor to serve Him when believing Him and taking Him at His word is all that is required.. for without faith, it is impossible to please God.
So that is why God giving you that love for Him to serve Him is not reliant on your promises, but you believing Him at His Word and that is why it is written that the "just shall live by faith" which is how we get to know Him personally when we take Him at His Word to see His workmanship in our lives and for others to see that too by testifying of that faith in Him.
I want to dive into his heart and continue to go deeper and deeper until i am completely drunk with him and his love.
You are filled and so there is no need to be drunk with him. Acknowledging that truth also testify of Him and not yourself by wat you are claiming to do by your effort.
Ephesians 1:[SUP]
17 [/SUP]That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him: [SUP]
18 [/SUP]The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints, [SUP]
19 [/SUP]And what is the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power, [SUP]
20 [/SUP]Which he wrought in Christ, when he raised him from the dead, and set him at his own right hand in the heavenly places, [SUP]
21 [/SUP]Far above all principality, and power, and might, and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this world, but also in that which is to come: [SUP]
22 [/SUP]And hath put all things under his feet, and gave him to be the head over all things to the church, [SUP]
23 [/SUP]Which is his body, the fulness of him that filleth all in all.
If it were my choice i would go and be with him now, but he told me to be strong for him so i have to continue on for him. If he asks himself when he looks down on the earth for a person of faith, for a person who truly seeks his heart, a person who truly loves hims with body mind and soul- I am this person and i am going to make sure there are many more who love him and seek him to the extent i do.
How are you this person? If it is because of Him and only Him, then you need to stop putting the spotlight of your testimony on yourself and your promises to Him in seeking glory for yourself as being that person by those promises as if that is why God has chosen you.
John 15:[SUP]
16 [/SUP]Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you.
Do we not love Him because He first loved us? Where is boasting then?
1 John 4:
19We love him, because he first loved us.
Brother, let another testify of you, and not you. You are to testify of the Son in seeking His glory and with His help, you shall avoid being a false witness.
I trust Jesus as my Good Sehpherd to keep the foot of pride away from me and to not let the word of truth depart from my mouth.
Psalm 19:[SUP]
9 [/SUP]The fear of the Lord is clean, enduring for ever: the judgments of the Lord are true and righteous altogether.
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10 [/SUP]More to be desired are they than gold, yea, than much fine gold: sweeter also than honey and the honeycomb. [SUP]
11 [/SUP]Moreover by them is thy servant warned: and in keeping of them there is great reward. [SUP]
12 [/SUP]Who can understand his errors? cleanse thou me from secret faults. [SUP]
13 [/SUP]Keep back thy servant also from presumptuous sins; let them not have dominion over me: then shall I be upright, and I shall be innocent from the great transgression. [SUP]
14 [/SUP]Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer.